oh well.

today i didnt really feel like studying heh.

i only study from 1 to 3, then slept till 6.30(6.30?! zomg) then continued studying until 8.

haha wat a slacker i had been today.

lol.

meanwhile during one of my breaks(wth i still have breaks?),

i saw this video.

it was so damn touching it was the first time i felt so touched.

i mean who wouldn't be touched to see an animal after god knows how long was separated from its owner will still remember him?

this video is a must see.

i won't be surprised if some people will find tears sliding down their cheeks.

touching isn't it?

but the owners are really brave to go near it,

considering the white tiger attack which happened not to long ago.

the no-life days are here i guess.

i started on PEEE aroound 1.30pm till 6.30pm.

i was so damn exhausted after a long while on the office chair.

maybe i should buy a more comfortable seat next time.

oh please i want to maintain the good results like i had in Mid Session 1.

no i dun want any results similar than MS, i want a drastically better results for this exam.

oh and for my "well deserved" rest,

i watch prison break,

which kinda get me more stressed out actually.

i just hate prison break episodes when everything turned out as plan but finally something bad happened.

in this case, the guys got cheated of the deal.

fuck lah i was so damn irritated.

i don't really know what i should do now.

should i continue my work or got for an early sleep?

did i mention that i think i'm having a mild fever?

oh man why do this things always happen when you can't afford to have them.

but i guess i shouldn't be fighting against God so i'll just errr do something to ease it,

or just nothing?

btw i'm looking for to go out with Hui Yin, Siva and Jolene,

to SIM LIM TOWER!

HAH!

ain't we eletrically cool?

i wonder when i can talk to her again.

haiz.

today would be the last day i will be having classes for this year!

wooot!

2009 i'm waiting for you babe.

i wonder what my resolution will be..

get a girlfriend?

HAHA wtv.

well talking about good things..

i was a good boy today yeah!

haha.

there's this female who dropped 10 dollars at BPP..

i returned it to her ok!

omg 10 dollars can buy new guitar string sehhh...

hehheh.

then today in school i reduced my antics..

i know i kinda tire them out haha.

i nvr did expect how many people i can tire out in a single lesson heh.

MST2 next week!

i'm quite nervous even though i had already took 2 exams before in my poly life.

just now i did DE past year papers..

baik seh budak tu!

belajar lah rajin2 eh..

boleh cpat dpt keje and kahwin!

-______-

whats wrong with me nowadays?

hmmph.

tml will be PEEE's turn.

ironically its my weakest subject.

haiz.

after MST2 finishes, which will be next Thursday...

I WOULD BE FREE!!!

woooh!

ok lets plan on what i should do.

err..

nvm forget it.

i want to sleep!

nites!

ok i sound like a kid in this post.

hadn't i been like it always?

hmmmph.

i just woke up from sleep.

when everybody will START to go to sleep.

heh.

lol i'm not sure of what happened to me.

suddenly i felt so depressed and stressed out.

MST2 just couldn't get out of my mind.

i kept on thinking about it.

its irritating least to say.

so basically i went home all-emo.

then went to sleep straight after Isyak.

and my dad thought I haven't came home from school.

HAH.

he only realised it when i woke up, brushed my teeth(i just hate the uncomfortable feeling in my mouth after waking up), and cooked Maggi and made a Milo drink.

and now i wanna get back to studying.

maybe i'll sleep around 2 am or right after i finished the 4 sets of PEEE past yr papers.

whichever comes first.

heh.

oh yeah just now was my first daring move to really dress up.

aha.

i wouldn't be bothered to really dress up had not there was a presentation today.

i wore the brown collar shirt and the trilby hat Hafiz gave me.

thank god finally i found out wat kind of wear suits the trilby.

after that was the meeting with the director.

the class leaders there are amazing.

someone said:

"I think we are done with good lecturers, can we move on to lecturers who needs to improve?"

hah.

and a long string of names came out.

LOL.

ok i'll have to say i have to start work now.

which i hate, as much as some(or is it most) people do.

oh yeah i just realised i only need to reach school at 3 and return home at 5.

YAY!

no emo tml please.

haiz.

guess what.

i reached home just to realise that there's no freaking bed in MY bedroom!

i was like where the hell is my bed!

then i found it in my bro's room.

i was soooo lucky i didn't execute the normal stunt i did.

i was simply to tired to jump over the bed onto the office chair.

haha how childish can i be?

so yeah back to the bed topic.

i was told that i will be given a new bed this thursday.

my old bed will be put in my bro's bedroom so that my nephew can sleep there.

aiyoo.

gonna miss the smell of the perfume.

hah.

wtv.

sad rite! Sorry about the mess I was mugging PEEE. 

i noe i do weird stuff sometimes.

like the weird jumps over the bed..

well i think its just me heh.

people would be so exhausted after the 4 hrs of math,

but i'll still be jumping around and joking.

ok maybe nt jump.

only about few minutes after the lesson will i feel tired.

hah.

oh is standing on a sewer normal?

the thing is,

at least the sewer manhole is smaller in SP than in ZSS.

ZSS have a damn bloody huge sewer manhole.

maybe when i go teacher's day this year i'll take a picture of it.

i think it should be a new tourist attraction.

eh wait.

i think ZSS really love big things.

they even have a damn huge ceiling fan in the hall.

again i'll take a picture of it.

gosh what happened ZSS?

hah. lol.

i just won a competition!

the best curler-when-its-cold competition.

hah!

gosh my mum,

she went and took a picture of me sleeping in a curl.

hah.

and obviously i'm nt going to show the picture.

ok just imagine a snail in a shell.

happy?

i got to know from Siva about my temperament blend.

some sort of individual personality.

my primary one is a San-guine and my secondary is Choleric.

i'm pretty impressed by how true they are.

well most of them, not all.

i'll post up about the personality once i get hold of his notes.

well other than that nothing interesting actually happened.

oh yea.

this is for you Lutfi.

fine i think its not right for us to just treat each other like enemies.

but it just painful that you accused me of jumping to conclusions.

you should noe how i will react if i were to be accused wrongly rite?

4 years man.

btw i hope you noticed that i said "if".

fine on my part, i'll apologise for being like potassium dipped into cold water(what kind of analogy is that)

and don't blame me for being sensitive.

i hate it even more.

right now the thing is,

if you wanna break our friendship, i welcome it.

but if you wanna retain this friendship, i'll welcome it too.

i just don't want Hafiz to have this dilemma of which party to side with.

i'm done here.

sorry that i didn't reply to ur sms.

the only thing that stops me from confessing to you is how afraid i am if i would not be able to take good care of you. And make you happy.

hey hey!

today was such a whole new experience for me!

it was the first time i saw adults going to a girl's home to serve as a middleparty(?) to help propose..

it was really so-out-of-this-world-weird for me..

ok i dunno why i said that.

LOL.

so this would be the third time my father would help a relative's family.

first was  

the second was when my elder cousin wanted to get married..

i mentioned about it before.

and now is my other cousin.

hah.

i wonder why a lot of people ask help from my father..

it was really weird to see and listen how my father sounds informal one second and formal the next.

with a tinge of scariness(such word?)

i bet the other party thought it would only involve like 4 people coming to their house.

HAHAH!

instead my mother's twin family came,

my cousin who wants to get married family,

my sister's family,

and of cos my parents and the whole family.

actually its a good thing cos it will show how serious we are in this matter.

well i initally didnt want to follow cos MST2 is coming up so fast.

but then at last,

after some incessant persuasion, i tagged along (hesistantly).

heh.

the females always want to camwhore every step they going to take.

gosh it was pretty irritating.

LOL.

then like my sister keep on chasing me around to make me take a picture with her.

gosh i don't want a camera facing me.

i'm just not photogienic.

AT LAST!

we arrived at the house.

and so my father started.

it was funny to listen to my dad talking,

he said it as if he is doing a ppt presentation.

like he talks in point form.

hah.

but it was good because he made everything understandable and clear for them..

and as usual my bro, bro in law and me would discreetly comment about everything.

hah.

no wonder Jolene commented last friday that i had lots of comments.

i learnt from both of them.

hah.

at least i don't always criticise.

heh.

so back to the point.

gosh after that we showcased how many jokers our family contained.

ok lah maybe everybody are jokers.

its like a chain reaction when one person crack a joke.

they cant stop laughing until we left.

haha maybe they felt the sudden emptiness.

during the meal was the best part.

gosh i could easily laugh my ass off right now if i were to recall.

phew stomach can burst ah. 

well that basically rounds up the day.

pretty exciting sundat i can say.

at least WAYYYYYYYYYYY better than when madrasah is on.

hah.

adding to the more serious things i did today was to complete GEMS ppt, did some PEEE revision that sort of things..

i have to get so serious now so that i can face MST2.

its all that i ask now.

if only Allah will immediately grant my wish of being hardworking.

well i know prayers won't be enough without hardwork..

but its pretty hard for me to be hardworking heh.

any tips to being able to absorb a lot of information efficiently??

u made me happy when you talked to me.

and i bet you didn't even know it.

you're just natural.

highlights of today.

Admission card

Went to T1 as instructed by the finance department to get the new adm card.

but fuck the t1 people told me to go t12 to take it.

ass.

its like taking mrt from bukit panjang to pasir ris,

then back.

asshole.

ok well at least now Jolene cannot tease me already!

HAHA.

"We mark attendance using our ADMISSION CARD, not like some who has to mark manually."

-_-.

New specs

took it just now.

only then i realised it ain't that different from my old one.

even though the lens are longer for the length and a bit smaller for the height.

and its black.

emo.

:D

emo twins ah kiter eh hafiz?

lol.

and now (after for god knows how long)

my bro changed to a new phone.

cool ah the phone.

cool but not my type.

HAHA.

its N79 i think.

my post ends here.

right now.

ok maybe wait.

i'm going vivo tomorrow!

its a date with my bro!

lol.

and now i'm missing her aiyoo damn it.

oh wow.

i just witnessed an accident from my room.

omg it was head on collision.

scary stuff.

urghh.

so yeah!

at last i changed my blogskin!

its just so hard to find one cos its like everything are for girls.

well frankly speaking i dun even really like the skin i'm using now lol.

school's getting tougher each day.

more assignments and projects.

adding to the burden would be the coming MST2 in 2 weeks time.

omg 2 weeks time?

oh damn.

haiz.

well i'll just endure it then after that would be 3 weeks break!

yay!

highlights for tomorrow.

stupid tcs lesson.

prgramming tutorial.

collect admission card.

collect specs!

wooh.

feel like going vivocity tomorrow.

eh wait shit.

i got tons of work to do.

GOSH!

eh?

i just realised i didn't post yesterday haha.

well i was too tired to post i guess.

so maybe i;ll just move on to today.

well of cos,

nobody seem to be able to escape from education.

no education in singapore means no chance of survival much?

hmm?

oh well.

except of the fact that i was pretty crazy today.

no not pretty.

VERY.

haha.

and the guys had to put up with the insane me.

well at least they know my erm crazy side?

hah.

wah Hui Yin you did smacked me hard eh?

lol.

GEMs was well, umm average?

we had to judge the other groups presenting.

well at least they DID go to the front and presented even though the lecturer gave some comments about eye contact that sort of things...

i'm pretty nervous by the though of presenting after 4 months of its absense?

omgomg i'm hyperventilating.

after that went jurong point with Hafiz.

just to get my GV member card.

and buy a new wallet.

haiz i felt so depressed when buying the wallet...

i wonder if my old wallet would somehow fly to me.

haiz.

but i do love the design.

my bro likes it too!

:D good sign if he likes it.

talking about designs and other sorts,

i got a twin lah!

lol weirdly his name is Hafiz.

LOL.

our wallet is red and black.

our bag is red and black.

our watch is blue.

my soon-to-be-new-specs and his are black.

just now my jeans and his are light blue.

the only two differences is that he is fairer cloured than me and he wears a cap while i don't.

haha!

HAFIZ!

TWINS AH!
long lost ah!!!

lol. 

then after that got an sms by Asraf saying that a friend of mine was admitted into the hospital.

i was so damn shocked actually.

so Asraf and me went to visit him.

my twin just refuses to follow us because his family will be going too soon.

ape ah hafiz hehe.

well i kinda felt pretty emotional even though i'm not that close to him.

i just hate it when i see people who i recognise get sick or wat.

i dunno its just me.

haiz.

its pretty scary seeing tubes penetrating his lungs and all the medical equipment there.

then tomorrow he's going for surgery to cover up the holes in his lungs.

aiya sad sad.

hope he gets better quickly.

get well soon Zaman.

pretty refreshing day for me actually.

made new specs at Sunny Optics.

i don't do this often,

i'll just frankly say the shop sells high quality workpieces at super low prices.

their worksmanship is excellent.

or maybe cos i'm a "regular" there they gave me half the price.

hah.

then after that went to Segar to make a report for my lost SP card.

actually i dun mind losing the wallet.

except of course my SP card is in there and damn it the wallet was a gift.

and its pretty expensive imo cos i nvr gotten a wallet that cost that much.

i dun really care about the ZSS alumni card heh.

its nt even used.

then after that went to meet up with somebody at the Segar LRT station.

wooh.

:D

i think i need to go to sleep early today.

i'm still shagged from the overnight.

and my legs feels like jelly.

ok peace off i wanna turn in cant take it anymore.

but i'm still worried cos i still can't do one of the questions in DE past exam papers.

haiz.

need to ask lecturer ah like dat.

mls ah.

haiz.

wooh.

home sweet home!

oh my god i had nvr realised how much i missed home.

so yeah that happens when i go overnights without much reluctance i think.

it was held at the Changi Beach.

and in my opinion this time round it really sucks.

eh wait.

hadn't the rest been pretty sucky too?

maybe i just hate overnights?

and now damn it my whole body is aching like heck.

but before reaching the beach.

my parents brought me to buy some food.

coincidentally it was near the place where my father grew out.

so its pretty nostalgic actually.

its like from the way he acts really shows how much he missed the place.

its like that time i went back to Bukit Batok to see the place.

but well i wish i can forget i lived that.

i just don't wanna remember anything about that place, St Anthony's Primary School and the people i knew there.

i remembered the times when i was about 6 yrs old,

my parents will go visit my grandma there before going to the East Coast beach nearby.

ironically i had nvr learnt how to ride a bike there.

i miss the view from my grandmother's house overlooking the beach

Changi Beach

if it weren't for the people who expect me to be there.

i wouldn't had bothered to go especially with the workload i had to handle.

well at least i did and completed my design circuit at the beach.

that kind of prove my oint of how boring it was.

who would want to do their school work when they're someplace to enjoy rite?

i hated the design. but heck its gonna get into my stomach and come out brown anyway. so i dun care. i just realised almost everyone in my family pops into earth ard october and november.

i don't know why the hell i was grinning like that. and make sure to notice the Boyanese twins. LOL!

like i said.

it was boring.

its all rent a bike, cycle 3.3km, when tired go rest and have a drink, take shower, then sleep.

repeat that for the whole day.

my cousin was busy with his mat rep friends so i was very well alone.

they look like golden monkeys so i don't dare go near them or else they might maul me hah.

wateva.

its just i hate people who thinks having their hair dyed gold is cool.

fuck that retards.

hah.

i don't befriend people like that.

in malay terms "tk sebulu".

hah.

i guess their dicks are too big for them to realise how ugly they look.

so back to the point about cycling,

my legs are aching and the bike seat did hurt my balls a bit.

gosh did i say that out loud?

well of cos one of the things that will make me go ever so excited is the sight of babies.

is it un-cool for a guy to say he loves babies?

hmm. idk seriously.

but i do love them.

hah.

and i think its one of the factors i didn't wilt and die of boredom at the beach.

my elder cousin's daughter.

thank god i'm home now.

i don't really want to know more about what i got to know just now.

its pretty disturbing for me actually.

last week my elder cousin's wife was disturbed by a pontianak.

her unborn baby nearly died cos the ghost apparently wanted the baby's blood.

so my uncle start using things that i never knew could be used to chase the ghost away.

so after that after seeing my face wondering how he can do it.

he told me about our family history actually.

i just got to know that in the past when i was a toddler,

there was a "fence" following me around.

it was meant to protect me from some weird creatures.

even my room has a "fence".

but as i grew up the "fence" naturally dissapeared.

so did the "fence" around my room. 

pretty weird though i imagined barbed wires flying around me haha.

and guess what?

he wanted to teach me.

yeah!

TEACH ME!

omg but i rejected it.

cos frankly speaking i'm pretty afraid of this kind of things.

but some moments i kinda regretted rejecting it.

maybe i use it to protect the people i care about.

but then its like getting into other people's "property" without their permission.

and its certainly not good right?

hmmm.

nah i dun wanna talk about it anymore.

i'm scared.

yeah really i'm not bluffing.

i'm frightened. 

and schools on tomorrow.

i'm tired so i'll end my post here.

eh yeah did i say.

i lost my waller which means i lost my SP card too damn it.

haiz.

luckily my ez link was with me.

and my waller contained nothing more valuable other than the SP card.

i need to make a police report and then make a new one.

so yeah i'll end my post with some random shots and quotes of the day.

Random pictures

the shampoo was deliberately placed there as a joke which i don't know how to say here.

Quotes of the day

"I don't really care if i have to shit standing up at the public toilet. I rather be dirtied by my own shit than another person's." 

"Hai nak tengok bapuk ternampak orang mabuk pulak" It just doesn't sound funny here haiz. Its about the rhyme.

Prank

I hid inside my father's car boot.

yeah i hid my whole body inside it.

wonderful how flexible i am eh?

so when my mum need to put something it she'll get frightened.

hah bad son.

lol.

omg i am so dead.

i'm pretty worried about my work relating to school already.

time seemed to have passed so fast.

i have GEMS report to complete.

i need to check the Maths PBL for grammar errors.

i have to complete the past year papers to prepare for the coming exams.

i still have to redo my circuit design for the IE project.

aiyoooo!

so packed damn it!

if only i don't have to go to Changi tomorrow.

haiz.

should i bring my laptop along to the beach?

hmm.

somehow.

i really felt GEMS is pressuring.

i'm yet to hand in a report.

damn it i just hated reports.

i definitely can't wait for Friday to come.

i wanna have so much fun i'll just forget everything that bothers me.

i'll just frankly say.

i feel rather stressed out already.

i think i'm pressing myself too much?

nah.

no excuses dude.

ur mst2 is coming so fast you won't even realise it.

well at least school had always been fun.

friends there are always fun to be with.

and of cos, supportive.

hmm seems like my posts are getting shorter by each day.

maybe its just that i got nothing to say.

i mean, i can't possibly make up stories right?

a wonderful day.

maybe i should keep it a secret of why it was.

the boring maths lecture suddenly turned into a happy one for me.

only.

i think.

hah.

and its kinda hilarious that some people really believe me so easily.

am i even angry with that person?

no?

you're just overreacting.

so much for your hey-i-care-for-this-girl attitude.

habuk pun tkde.

sensitive.

MST2 is coming up in about 2-3 weeks time.

well frankly speaking, i've been anticipating it.

i just wanna get over it.

and of course do very well.

i don't know why,

but somehow i really felt like studying these few days.

i hope the motivation wouldn't die down anytime soon.

better if it goes along with me my whole life.

i wanna be successful.

oh lol kinda weird that its coming from me eh?

to prove my point above,

i'll just say this out.

i don't really care if i were to be called no-life guy.

cos i think i really was.

hah.

yesterday, i did differentiation from 8-10pm.

then just now, the whole 4 hours of maths i continued doing it.

non-stop.

omg i really didn't realise how fast the time went by.

but at least i didn't fell asleep.

which is what i wanted all along despite the boring lecturer.

i don't wanna miss any important points that might be pointed out.

moreover with the "secret" that i mentioned in the first paragraph.

its really emotionally refreshing for me i'll just say that out loud.

lol.

now i'm contemplating whether i should bring some past year MST paper to the beach this coming friday for the overnight..

hmm.

NAH!

don't think so.

its meant for me to just relax my mind.

why should i be doing something stressful when i should be having fun?

oh well.

beautiful day!

it was a perfect day to go to the zoo.

not too hot and not even raining.

but i'll say this directly,

this would be the first and last time i will want to go there with you guys.

even though i have a lion for a father,

still it's better to go with him.

its only a while before your husband wants to head home.

with all his excuses.

wait..

before that.

even though its like that, i really appreciate the fact that you wanna at least send us to the zoo.

thnx for that.

if only ayah didn't have roster duty yesterday and only came home this morning.

a damn huge pipe apparently burst.

haha.

i saw the picture.

it was outrageously cool.

haha.

obviously his car wouldn't need another carwash.

hah.

haha but i so adore the kids of my brother's girlfriend's sister.

they were so adorable.

so fun to be with them.

but the thing is,

they are identical twins,

so i had a hard time differentiating one from the other.

but other than that,

they were so fun to be with!

omg i just said that again.

should have proved my point now.

hmm i think this is Nusaibah. I THINK! haha during this picture she was sulking cos she couldn't get on the boat ride. but after getting the picture of the pony ride she went on, she was so excited. lol

sad i couldn't get her front view picture. she's closer to me than the other twin. sweet girl. ok BOTH ARE SWEET AND ADORABLE!

from here on now.

it will be full of pictures.

i don't really feel like having a lot of words for this post.

my legs are filled with lactic acid.

and it felt like shit.

a whole load of monkeys omg.

obviously this guy really love to pose. fyi this species of monkeys love to masturbate. yea i'm serious. it was also the first animal to have sex in front of us. YEAH! IN FRONT OF US! obviously we frightened them cos we laughed so hard.

Mongoose Cute but nothing more interesting about it. Other than the smell of course.

the deer which had its head stuck in between the fence. LOL hilarious.

the youngster who just learnt how to balance on a wooden log.

my dream home. YEAH RITE!

i bet if she were to be alive, she would be one gorgeous and pretty village girl. i'm not being sarcastic. lol.

the old man who wants his balls bitten by snakes. :P

AND OF COURSE! WHO WOULDN'T MISS THIS!

FUCKING TORTOISES!!!

AREN'T THEY SO "CUTE"?

i thought that they only will be slow while moving. but even in sex were they slow. haha. they really looked like robots with the "1 time go in, 5 seconds rest". oops sorry for sounding so perverted haha.

and being me,

a person who just don't have anything better to do.

i recorded this.

i guess the tiger were really hungry.

so it was moving along the edges.

like it was so near fall.

so i recorded this waiting for it to fall.

haha.

but unluckily(shouldn't it be luckily?) it just wouldn't fall into the water body.

omg my palm still smells of goats after i touched them.

damn.

i wanna meet the twins again!

haiz.

i have to say.

today was very thrilling and full of happiness for me.

welcome to my life yeah?

i will take this very seriously.

in a good way of course.

:D

try to figure out what i mean.

can't wait for tomorrow.

the place my dad works will have family day every year.

and we're are going to the zoo this year!

i wanna see the new animals!

and also this place where i can touch the tiger cubs.

i only patted a kangaroo and giraffe head before.

oh man i bet i'm going to be more excited than my sister's son.

i'm love animals so much.

haha.

i think there's no stray cats that i haven't touched before.

lol.

but then after that must wash hand lahh..

:{

i hope i will get to meet Asraf there which is a very low chance.

its a damn big place.

i kinda miss him.

LOL.

when can i go out with you lah slenge!

aiyoo..

always archery.

haha.

btw my dad told me what he did when someone in his his secondary school days bosses him around.

the guy lost a tooth.

well if if only Singapore has no rules.

i would have killed that specific person.

really i'm so tempted to hurt him.

motherfucker.

oops did i say it out loud?

if there really is no rule.

omg i would have cleared out his family too.

maybe give him a physchological torture first?

then let him just commit suicide?

haha.

ok i'm not that dangerous.

like i said,

if only there are no rules.

i just hate it when people cross paths with what i like.

oh yea you too.

if i were to find out why she's acting like that.

and its because of you.

i won't hesitate to hurt you too.

even if you're a female.

i wonder how your parents gave you a name which has the same meaning as flourishing.

IMY.

YAY!

first programming test went so well.

phew.

it was a relieve.

though at the start i made a careless mistake.

luckily there's still time to change.

need to keep reminding myself that there's no such thing as B^2 in C++.

should replace it with B*B.

the formula really did tick me off.

so time consuming.

hey it looks so easy now. well maybe it is, the only thing that is troublesome is to get the pseudocode and get the fucking formula to work perfectly. oh and the lecturer was wowed by my font. AHAHAHAHA.

hmm on to my eating plan.

oh my god i never ate that much in my life before.

lol.

i took 1 hour to complete a meal haha.

its like stuffing a teddy bear into my throat damn it haha.

ok wtv i'm not sure of what to say in this post already.

so.

erm. 

cout <<"VicenzoRahman signing out yeah!";

lol.

oh lol.

so much for my increase my appetite plan.

hah.

i appreciate your help Aida!

thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!

hehheh.

but the webbie say must eat a lot at one time.

which i can't possibly achieve.

i just couldn't gorge food down aiyooo..

but i will not stop trying.

hah.

well maybe last resort would be that I'll get the GNC Mass Gainer.

haiz.

tomorrow's my first computer related lab test.

i wonder how i will fair.

pretty nervous.

well at least the tutorial just now was fun.

we started using if/else commands.

initially i had to code two choices,

and i did it!

yay!

then the lecturer gave me another challenge.

he told me to set the program to output an error if the user inputs choice 3 which is non existent.

well of course at first i just couldn't get it to work.

so after some "troubleshooting",

i managed to get it working!

and i did some vulgar things with the errors.

well initially there's no f word cos its mean for Hui Yin to see.

kind of "cheat" her ah when she enters 3.

haha but then i changed it cos she was so busy with her work.

hmmphh.

heh explicit content so warning yeah?

oh see my CodeBlock font.

nice or not?

haha.

i can't wait for the weekend!

i wanna go vivocity!

with somebody!

yay!

can't wait! can't wait!

ok back to my mission of eating.

wait.

its near midnight.

i got to get some rest!

alamak.

aiyo ama.

oh btw.

i had been playing this game Mafia.

its a VERY COOL GAME!

recommended!

but of cos made sure i studied first before playing cos its pretty fun and addicting.

omg i just indirectly said that killing people is fun and addicting.

hah.

people who wants it.

ask me!

but promise me not to abandon your studies yeah?

and now i want to look like a Mafia.

HAHAHA.

a modern/casual Mafia that is.

with no weapons and wheels lol.

hmm how about a black hoodies with brown jeans?

with the trilby/fedora Hafiz gave me for my birthday?

haha.

i'm going to buy another hoodie in Dec!

oh man a lot of things to buy.

red specs?

white watch?

twister, slim, straight jeans?

shirts?

long sleeved shirts?

underwear? haha jkjk.

MAN i'm so going to be broke every month.

its been one month and my hair isn't showing any signs of getting longer.

DAMN.

is there any supplements for hair growth?

haha Beijing 101?

LOL.

wow!

i'm such a forgetful idiot today.

firstly i forgot to bring along my phone.

sorry to the person who messaged me like so frantically need to know the answer lol.

then i realised i forget my keys.

i was lucky my mum was home because she mentioned she would be going out.

should i also mention i "forgot" about GEMS?

hehe.

i skipped GEMS today.

lol.

i just need a break.

having an atmosphere when the percentage of of the opposite sex is 70% kinda suffocating.

well maybe i'm not used to it.

BUT I WILL need to get used to it hah.

somehow.

involuntarily?

-_-

i've completed my second board today!

i hope i didn't put any components at the wrong place or wat.

hah.

and well much more smarter today.

i made sure there's moving air which is also called wind moving across my face.

so the "curry smell" of the solder won't kill me faster.

i'm kinda sick of it already.

its kinda weird that there's the smell of curry in soldering flux.

dejavu?

or is it that i'm just hallucinating.

nah i'm not even craving for curry.

and moreover a lot of people said the same thing too.

so yeah..

talking about curry.

i'm suddenly thinking about getting supplements to increase my appetite.

it was all sparked when i saw Siva taking supplements for improved blood circulation.

wait, does this kind of supplements really exist?

hmm..

or maybe another alternative is to buy the GNC Mass Gainer.

but i'm afraid there are some like erm how should i say..

the bad side of "artificial" mass gainers?

well maybe i should do some research or wat.

when was the last time i took rice?

omg.

oh before i forget.

YAY!

Mr Obama wins!

HANDS DOWN SOMEMORE!

i just have no idea why i kept track of it the whole day.

maybe well Singapore's presidential election isn't as "exciting" as US's.

ooopps did i say that out loud?

sorry.

but still Singapore is governed by a strong government.

i'm proud to be a Singaporean.

-_-

and finally uploaded my version of My Immortal.

here you go!

specially for you Hafiz!

sorry for the late upload.

bz lah slenge.

hah.

looking forward to seeing you again!

can't wait!

Evanescence - My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

aww what a beautiful song.

so meaningful.

and yeah rich Gibson sounds yeah?

haha.

i'm so surprised i survived today's maths.

worth 40 hours.

4 hours lesson.

but the lecturer makes it feels like 40 hours.

and wonderfully i didn't sleep.

hah.

so tomorrow i will be anticipating the 2nd board to be ready for soldering.

another day for deathwish.

lol.

i just love being in a polytechnic.

i don't regret following my instincts of going poly instead of jc.

poly is damn fun with all the hands on involved.

great day indeed yeah.

well except the fact i don't really like the fact that we are getting further and further away from each other.

you might know who you are.

you know what i mean.

yes!

finally.

something really useful we did during IE.

last few weeks of IE was fuckingly useless because we had nothing to do.

lesson learnt?

do last minute work..

haha.

then during our break time, Mr Au showed us how to measure the power outlet's voltage using the multimeter.

actually it wasn't planned, cos there's no power initially to power our soldering iron etc..

i was standing there so afraid that he will get shocked my the high voltage,

and there he was smiling away as he measure.

and i was cursing under my breath.

well at last i tried for myself.

i was so on my feet so that if i feel something wrong i will jump away.

hah.

well nothing happened actually.

if something happened, who's writing this post rite?

-_-

and being a blogger, i took pictures of what i think are "interesting".

so here is the picture when he started poking the power outlet.

thats my bag! oh and that pair of shoes are Hui Yin's. Extra hehe. my sheen still hurts girl. grr.

so now we got a new project.

we had to build car.

nope its not a typical car.

its an intelligent car.

it has gazillion functions.

ok maybe i'm exagerating.

it knows when to start, stop, reverse all that kind of stuff automatically.

so it will be a pretty exciting project i guess.

4 boards to complete.

talking about completing, the moment the word "solder" came out.

the three guys will look straight at me.

i was like "wth damn it".

hah.

they really want me to die fast don't they.

well but i dun really mind.

cos i really love soldering the moment i started trying it out during the first IE lesson.

and glad to say this, my worksmanship is peaking.

well of cos i just couldn't use other soldering iron other than mine, or else i will screw up.

maybe tomorrow i'll post a picture of the PCB board soldered.

more pictures for viewing pleasure.

is it even pleasurerable? hah. all the wires. this is the model one.

i had nothing to do. and i love close up photos. so i did this! i kinda like this closeup i did. well not sure for other people.

it had been a great day for me.

yeah at least at school uhh.

btw here you go Hafiz!

my immortal as requested!

but its not the rock version.

i'll post the rock version tml when i upload mine.

:D

oh people there any songs just tell me.

i'm so out of ideas of what song to put at my blog.

when you are a stingy person.

it doesn't matter if you get $350 raise per month.

didn't go madrasah to day.

hah.

well i got to say that i'll just waste my time going there because there isn't anything more to study.

ain't still getting my appetite back.

so ate biscuits the whole day.

i'm also so not motivated to study haha.

isn't it as always?

lol.

i only studied 3 chapters and did some questions when i get tired and bored out.

i'm demotivated.

i'm just exhausted.

so i went on and played this chopper simulation game Comanche 4.

pretty old game.

it really got me excited trying to dodge the missiles flying towards me.

i got a screenshot of the dodging.

here it is.

see the fiery thing to the left of my cockpit?

hah.

pretty adrenaline pumping uhh.

schools on tomorrow.

and there's IE interview.

shit i'm not going to like it.

i just love it when i see couples taken pictures with each other.

specifically this particular couple.

i smiled so wide seeing them.

they are just so suited for each other.

both with the cheeky smile.

haha.

why am i highlighting this?

 

can we talk?

the two sons of Malek's family had just completed their movie marathon!

oh well maybe i'm lying.

i slept half the time.

haha.

its really difficult to stay awake in the dark.

with the comfy bed etc.

basically today was a healthy day.

erm kind of i think.

went to the gym to build my body.

i'm losing weight so quickly i really need more muscles to counter the loss.

did i mention i hadn't ate a proper meal for 3 days?

i just lost my appetite after all the "life complications".

i better get my appetite back soon or else i just have to gorge food down.

i had been thinking about this.

i felt that, maybe its time for me to be close to my grandma.

i mean never in my life had i been so close to my grandma.

i just hated myself for it.

but sometimes i feel that its because i rarely get to see her.

i remember that time when my grandfather died,

i just sat there.

no grief or sadness plastered on my face.

i was so emotionless.

its like i don't really care if anyone i loved died.

now to think of it, i made the biggest mistake of my life.

i just hate myself.

why am i like that?

is it because i was in primary school so i know nothing about it?

NAH.

no reason for that.

i just suck.

i'm sick of myself.

and i wanna change.

my nenek is already 60+!

i really need to be with her.

especially with the fact that i got a man who behaves like a damn log as a father.

one who won't support anything his child loves.

the one who would think so many times whether to buy his child clothes knowing the fact that his child's wardrobe is fucking empty.

and most of the time, he will just reject the idea of getting me clothes.

and i fucking need to use my own pocket money even though i'm already buying my school necessities using my own bloody pocket money.

and i don't think you fucking know it dad.

i hadn't been eating in school since day 1 cos i just need to save.

I FUCKING NEED TO SAVE BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WON'T BOTHER!

why am i in this world in the first place?

i tried my best in my education to please you.

but what did i get in return?

a fucking attitude?

i wish to mention this again.

and i will say this straight to your face if you ask me this question.

i'll just say, the only thing that made me still wanna live is Mama and Abang Aim.

again, i only respect you.

love? its near to non existence.

one day i wish i could stay with nenek.

i just wanna feel the love i lack.

i just envied people who are close to their grandparents.

how does it feel to be close to your nenek?

it feels really good.

haiz.

life hadn't been tops this few weeks.

but i just gotta prop myself up and pretend nothing bad happened.

cos i just can't let my education get worse due to this.

ok maybe i have to laugh a bit about this.

but sometimes i felt that i really wanted a girlfriend.

this way i can feel at least some love.

and could express my outmost affection.

which i just couldn't experience at home.