haiz.
i'm so frustrated about PEEE today.
i felt as if i'm so useless.
i don't seem to understand a single bit about the PBIL.
i don't know how to use the semilog graph paper.
its a graph paper but the horizontal axis is different.
i'm so pissed with myself.
why can't i get something in my brain easily?
i'm fucking geram right now.
i don't even know what to comment for the active band pass filter results.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!
i don't bloody know what exactly passband gain is too.
fuck lah.
i'm so frustrated with myself.

i actually wanted to talk about thing my father revealed about himself.
but right now i don't even want to include any weird or happy or exciting thing in this post.
BECAUSE I'M BLOODY DEPRESSED!
i'm so stressed out!
i feel like throwing everything outside the window and just sit in one corner and do nothing.
FUCK LAH I HATE MOMENTS LIKE THIS.

today IS a tiring day.
it was because today is the day my sister bring out all her things from her old house to her new house.
it wasn't that difficult though.
she didn't bring that much things from her old house because she is going to buy new things.
so all the old thingys are left behind at her old house.

i love her new house.
not that i don't like the house i'm living in.
its just that i like a smaller sized home.
having too spacy a house is pretty tiring considering the fact that cleaning up is troublesome.
omg did i say i LOVE the master bedroom too?
its soo cool.
there isn't any aircon in the room.
but the floor in the room feels cold.
cool sia!
the living room floors never felt the same.
weirdly, the most favourite of the rooms for me is the toilet.
its a really nice place.
in the sense spacy.
yeah i love spacy toilets.
haha.

then the owner of the house got this daugter.
omg she is damn beautiful.
haha.
moreover she wears shorts then its like so distracting.
HAHA.
don't blame me eh.
her fault.
LOL.
the part i was carrying the long mirror is so damn funny.
haha.
i was carrying towards the bedroom.
then she was like in my way.
haha the way we tried to dodge each other is hilarious.
i was worried about hitting the ceiling fan.
then when i lower the mirror i nearly hit her head.
kesian dier.
haha.
nvm overall,
the helping out is worthwhile.
AND SHE IS CUTE! hahahaha.

i got the splitting headache again today.
it hurts so much.
it feels like as if my head will be blowing up soon enough.
i wonder whats the cause of it.
maybe chong lin is right.
i had been skipping meals because i need to complete some assignments lately.
i'll put it as first priority to watch my health.
especially with the upcoming exams.

and today might qualify for the most worrying day of 2009.
i've heard a lot of things.
i'm very worried about Mr Teh and the story that revolves it.
then i'm worried about this other malay friend whose life went haywire.
also about Lutfi and the dissapointment he faced.
not to mention about myself as well.
i'm really not that strong physchologically and mentally currently actually.
i'm getting depressed over things that well maybe are not that significant.
haiz.
i seriously want to talk to a specific someone right now.

i deleted my friendster account.
i hate friendster.
i switched to facebook.
just to play the games there.
:D
and i got a hot 17 year old russian girl who added me.
LOL!

pretty not in a good mood today actually.
oh well.
tomorrow should be better.
:p

btw the only thing that makes me wanna watch the latest season of AI is Kara.
heehee.
:D

mama and ayah reached home around 5 pm just now.
haha i missed them so much.
but then being a guy, ego ah.
like act cool and just welcome them as per normal.
actually in the heart sooo happy and relieved to see them.
LOL.

what displeased me was my brother.
my dad joked with him saying why he went home late.
then he was like suddenly raising his voice.
wth seh.
i was damn pissed.
including my brother-in-law and sister.
ayah just arrived and he treated him like that already.

i think my bro-in-law was damn pissed.
he picked up a fight with my bro.
actually it was a blowout.
very sudden and impulsive.
i was playing America's Army with headphones.
then i was like wondering how come there's people shouting in the game.
haha wth seh can still play game.
lol.

so gedebak gedebuk(no dun worry no physical fights involved).
my TIRED dad went into action and took control.
so there the talks and wildfire of emotions came.
cos my brother he got this damn huge ego and he wants to win everything.
always will resort to raising his voice that kind of things.
so my dad talked about it lah, about him being rude like that.
the thing my father said really hit me hard in the face even though i was well behaved(cheh) during their absence.
he said that when he yelled at us, he often felt regretful and guilty.
but then he had to do it because he just wants us to be better people.

then my bro-in-law spills more.
he said my bro brought his gf to our home.
i was really pissed at that time too when he brought her home.
but then i just couldn't say anything cos he wouldn't listen to me.
so again another talk about it.
more emotions came by.
my bro-in-law mentioned about rumors that might hit our family if he continuees bringing her home without ayah's permission.
ayah agreed.
i just don't fucking know why lah.
some people RELATIVES(ironic eh? fuck lah the relatives. that's why i prefer the relatives over at malaysia) are so damn jealous about our family.
idk lah.
its not that we are that rich?
ok maybe we ARE a happy family.
somehow they will work hard to bring down our family's reputation lah.
fucking bustards.

ok so the end product is,
my brother crying, including my mother(obviously lol).
my sister on the verge of tears too.
my bro-in-law kept his cool.
for me, err ok lah kept cool jugak but at some point of time when what my father says hot me hard i will on the verge of tears too but then held it back.
tahan tahan.

oh btw did anyone notice i said ayah talked?
instead of lecture?
yeah he changed soooooo much.
i bet in the past if he were to know about my bro bringing his gf home,
my bro would end up in a corner or wat.
but know he's just like advicing.
although still with his trademark loud and strict voice.
and guess what, he even managed to slip a joke in between the talks.
he said that if my brother really want the girl, he would personally go to her house and tell her parents.
then he continued to say "of course there are conditions, you shouldn't be marrying a junkie or insane...a normal person should be ok".
haha wats wrong with my dad seh nowadays.
ok lah i'm really glad he changed his ways.
i'm so proud of my parents.
hee.:p

i'm busy as a bee today.
:D
well i'm actually glad i was.
something that can last me the whole holidays.

early in the morning i set out to my sister's house..
ok maybe not her house anymore cos names for that house had already changed.
so hmm ex-home?
lol.
so basically it was all about packing.
initially i wasn't even helping her at all.
because she don't expect me to.
so as promised i reconfirmed my design.
of course i didn't manage to do the DE lab test preparation because there was no internet.
and i freaking only realised it when i reached there.
taman jurong is so technologically impaired.
hee.

so instead i partly completed my TCS proposal.
somehow i got so much ideas at that point of time.
so basically i'm soooo in trouble because my proposal is like 300 words wayyyyyyy over the limit.
and yet i haven't even came close to the conclusion.
hell lol.
one of these days i'm going to cut down all unnecessary sentences and words.
since when am i soooo creative to include decoders in my device?

so after finishing the proposal and playing a few rounds of CS.
i decided to help my sister.....
KILL COCKROACHES!
because she hadn't been living in the house.
a lot of that insects had been checking in like a hotel.
especially her kitchen utensils drawers and cupboards.
so i took out the softball bat from my brother-in-law's car(should i mention why he kept there? HINT: he always goes to malaysia at night and its pretty unsafe there at night).

it was damn fun killing the cockroaches.
u noe its like hitting the crocodile heads at the arcade?
the one with the hammer?
yeah that one.
fun but tiring.
i also like it when i hit to injure instead of hitting to kill.
i always will hit the back of the insect then when its like they can't move i crush them hehe.
at last i gave up using the softball bat so i resorted to stepping on them instead.
of course with a cloth wrapped around my feet. :D
i get more kills like that.
sometimes having a size 9 1/2 feet is nice.
hmmm how many kills did i get eh?
more than 20?
hee.
i know its disgusting.
i don't know why, its not like i'm afraid of it.
its just that i hate it so much i want it to suffer first before dying.
its the most disgusting insect imo.

talking about disgusting,
i ate three not homecooked meals today.
ok fine disgusting and meals not link lah actually eh.
but its my fiiiiirst time that i ate outside food three times a day.
for breakfast was mee rebus at this coffeeshop.
then lunch it was nasi briyani.
then dinner it was Macs.
i wonder how much weight will i gain if i were to have this kind of diet everyday.

Mama and Ayah will be back tomorrow.
i can't wait.
i miss them.
heh.

parents away.
i'm am enjoying myself.
SO NOT.
:p
life had been very boring lah lately.
i spent the whole doing erm actually i'm not sure of what i did.
certainly not studying!

gosh ok i promise tomorrow i will do more error checks on my circuit design,
start doing DE lab test preparation sheet.
and maybe well, revise because exams are coming like in a few weeks time.
that's three things i need to fulfill tomorrow.
eh shit.
i just realised it shouldn't be tomorrow.
its already 12.47am.
so its basically today.

oh yeah i just remembered one of the things i did today.
i watched REC again with my bro.
how did i remember it?
well i came out with a really not that funny joke.
people who watched quarantine or rec would know about the zombie at the last part.
she is sooooo skinny.
Me: Is she a real person?
Bro: I'm not really sure.
Me: I got a feeling she's a model.
Bro: Huh? Meaning?
Me: She's damn skinny.
:D
i hope that no models would happen to chance upon my blog.
hee.
:)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO MY CHINESE FRIENDS!
MALAYS DON'T EXTRA EH? LOL.
GONG XI FA CAI!
ANG PAO NA LAI?
budak tak tahu malu.

parents will be travelling a long distance tomorrow.
pretty am relieved that it is not necessary for me to follow.
brother-in-law have some plans tomorrow.
i hope it would be a great day tomorrow.
:)
i seriously need to chill.

i'm having a headache designing the count limiting circuit.Who is talented enough to convert this...

to this???? :D

*RAISES HANDS! BOTH HANDS!*
heehee.
the picture upside down lah..
i don't know why blogger rotated the picture.
i can't be bothered to edit.
lol.
at least i did something good today.
trust me its frustrating+troublesome+takes a lot of patience.
i love the sms i sent to HY and then Siva.
Sry to disturb u but do u prefer a more compact board but more trouble cutting lots of jumpers or less compact but less troublesome?
surprisingly they chose the latter.
well maybe at least for me. :p
btw jumpers are actually wires.
engineering term much?

i heard a shocking news from one of my secondary ex-schoolmates.
my form teacher a.k.a pure physics teacher is suffering from liver cancer.
its not just any ordinary liver cancer.
its at the terminal level.
haiz i feel so sad for him.
the doctor said he got 6 more months to live.
its really a sad and shocking news.
i still remembered what he said to me during the release of my 'O' level results.
that particular sentence had actually moulded me into what i am today.
a more motivated individual.
i will always remember the deeds he had done for the class and me.
i remembered the time when school nears the end for us, he joked more.
and our class find it weird.
haha the good memories we had.
i'm really missing him.
i wish i had gone to ZSS during the CNY celebration.
ok i think i better stop now.
i might just start crying.

*To all 4E1 people, if you guys wanna chip in and contribute to a hamper and a card for him, please do contact Gina or some other "in-charge". May also leave a tag at my blog or sms me.

wooaahhh i'm over 400 post.
:D

ok so basically its been a busy week.
a lot of work to do.
to the fact i can't really joke in sms.
sorry awak.

like i said i had been busy.
that's why i should stop here.
why did i start anyway?

did anyone read the newspaper today?
Mr Obama had his 2nd swearing in due to the fact that he fumbled during the "official" swearing in.
but this time it gets more funny.
Chief Justice: Are you ready to take the Oath Of Office?
Mr Obama: Yes I am, and this time we are going to do it very slowly.
gosh isn't he sooo humorous?

there was a sudden twist of event in GEMS today.
well...kind of.
there was a surprise fire drill at around the block i was having my GEMS.
obviously only the staff were told about it.
not us.
unlike during secondary school.
so off we went to the concourse to assemble.
pretty stupid lah actually because they made us assemble under the hot sun.
especially with me wearing two layers to brace for the cold classes in SEEE.
shouldn't had worn mr trenchie.
well at least we didn't have to be bored listening.
and moreover we bonded more during the assembly.

and also we, the students in EEE faculty became the beta tester for this new system.
it basically combines all the sites that we usually need to access for school.
and add more functions.
which are redundant.
i don't find the point of doing a blog there because its just boring and nobody would be reading a boring blog..
thats why nobody reads my blog.
:p
i wish i can be more humorous in my post?
so for now only EEE can access the site.
haha aren't we proud of being in SEEE?
hee.

oh btw did anyone see the inaugaration of Mr Obama?
it was pretty funny for me.
the event was like 2 hours.
but guess what, the actually swearing in only took less than 30 seconds.
haha klakar lah.
then there's this official who put a small platform for Mr Obama to stand on during the swearing in.
he was like i think he said "Am I short?" in a humorous way.
yeah I think he would be the most humorous Mr President.
anyway, YAY TO MR OBAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*notice the number of ! i inserted.

Quote of the week:
One of my friends,
Nigel is always carrying the toolbox on Mondays.
it made him look very stiff.
so i told him;
me: eh don't bring the toolbox lah..just bring the soldering iron lah.
him: then where to put the sodlering iron?
me: in your bag lah?
him: then later hot how?
wth. haha wat a joker.
ok wtf i'm so pissed at how jokes sound so unfunny in blogs.
nvm.

Joke of the week:
PEEE lecturer: Mustafa why are you late?
Mustafa: Oh the MRT just now speeding sir, then the traffic police stop and fine it.
-_-.

Entertainment of the week:
Playing Sims 2 in class and making them have sex.
the in-bed fireworks seemed to amuse the guys behind.
:)

I think you should be more secure dude. I'm already fucking over it and you're still acting like a bloody bitch who just think you are the best guy for her. Damn arrogant. Tell you what. I can be an asshole and cause you guys to break up lah. I just need some time to prepare anything I want to do to break you guys up. Then maybe I'll take her or maybe, hmm according to what I want right now, I'll just leave her. But yeah I'm not one of the fuckers who spoils relationships. So don't go around me looking like a fucker who thinks you are everything. I hate it. You are like the other guys who has a relationship for the first time lah. SO BLOODY INSECURE. She's not your wife that you want to know everything that I talked with her about. PERIOD BABI BUTO.

Oh man I sound awfully confident.

hey!
today wasn't bad at all.
i anticipated another boring day at sch.
a lot of things happened i didn't even realise it was boring.
well other than PEEE which we took the whole two hours just to figure out how to find the corners of the band pass filter and drawing the bode plot.
hah.

oh and i learnt something more about gates.
in the sense NAND gates that kind.
we were shown the actual composition of the gates.
i was shocked to see what it contained.

what i had been using. 4 NAND gates in an IC chip.

what is inside 1 NAND gate in the IC chip which contained 4 gates. how they squeeze all the transistors, resistor and diodes inside seh! the transistors, resistors and diodes isn't that small to be fitted in a chip the size of a 50 cent coin shaped into a rectangle! the wonders of nanotechnology. aduhai.

whats happening to this world lah haha.

i also got a temporary trauma due to oranges today.
apparently the school put two orange plants in fc3.
(randomly fyi SP has 6 foodcourts not including the cafes and vending machines whichithinkistoomuchbecauseeverywhereigoiseeone)
so being me the tangan gatal i go and pluck one.
ok lah actually they didnt even put any notice saying we can't take ape.
maybe they should be more aware of the existence of people like me.
;D
when i tasted the orange, omg it was damn sour i panicked before i spit out the thing.
yeah i panicked which means i didn't know what i should do with the orange in my mouth.
haha dumbo.
lol.
well at least my friends had a good laugh.
its good to laugh after being stressed out rite?
:p
i'm such a hero.

EDIT: Know the new hot American Idol judge? lol. i just realised a few days ago that she is the lead vocals of my favourite band. not that i don't care about the band members, its just that i forgot that she is actually the vocals. haha i'll put up the song now..or maybe later if imeem won't upload it fast enough.

EDIT #2: ok i was surprised imeem uploads it fast. so here we go! ok maybe about the sentence on top..heh actually i don't really care about members in a band whether i love the band or not. unlike some girls(? hee) who goes wild talking about the members in their favourite band. not attacking anybody if terase your business ok. but yeah now that i noticed Kara (btw my mother uses coconut milk with the brand name Kara haha), i personally think she's umm hot beautiful ah..[i personally find calling the opposite sex hot is pretty rude because it makes them sound like sluts(the the bikini girl in AI; she is hot)]..Kara is beautiful haha...

haha i wonder what will happen if somehow Kara reads this post then she saw the coconut milk brand i wonder if she will sue the company like how Joe Satriani sued Coldplay. HAHA.

just when i wanted to forget it.
i saw it.
aduhai.
sakit nyer hati ni.
haiz.
takpe takpe.

another round of an attemp on my life.
though i can't deny soldering its fun.
my group is STILL BLOODY STUCK AT THE MOTION SENSOR BOARD!
AFTER A BLOODY ONE MONTH.
fucking frustrating.
luckily we already knew how to do the count limiting board.
i'm getting less interested to typing a post.
maybe its just because of this thing called writers block.

i'll just say this out loud,

no wait i won't actually.

no i want to.

are you still alive and with me?

btw is it normal for someone to not like PSP?

sometimes i just love the student feedbacks all poly students have to complete regarding their lecturers.

i will not say its that difficult so i don't there are any reasons to complain against it because they are all MCQs.

with optional open ended comments.

the fun thing is that i can shun lecturers i don't really like.

not the personal attack kind lah of course.

i have to be professional you know.

:p

so some of them(to be exact three) got an nice feedback.

the TCS lecturer had the nicest.

all was strongly disagree.

eh wait one of them was disagree.

WAH NOT BAD EH?

-_-

the rest of the lecturers got super nice(no sarcasm this time) feedback.

wait why am i telling this things?

oh well.

talking about school,

sometimes being in Aerospace kind suck.

not in the sense it's a stupid course lah.

its because of the fact that it's one of the top courses that this problem arises.

everytime i went to some people's house,

for example just now when my family went to my nephew's friend birthday party,

one of the family members asked me wat course i enrolled in.

then when i said it they started wow-ing here and there.

its really embarassing in front of the people.

its like as if i'm a single pointer or wat.

i'm only an eleven pointer lah dei.

as if i'm that hardworking either.

i do slack at times(which are sometimes times that are crucial).

alamak why lah gini.

even worse when people think of space instead of airplane maintenance.

wah nak keje kat NASA?

wth man.

alamak hai.

why!

why structured programming!

haiz the debugging part confused me.

then my coding part i missed out an indentation.

haiz.

horrible.

terrible.

anyway heard this song from someone whom i went out with last week.

its pretty catchy haha.

not to forget funny.

gosh i wonder how many more funny songs she has.

:p

i can't believe i squeled when i see the little kids coming out from the childcare centre under the block i live.

haha.

i'm so unpredictable.

and i could safely say the above was totally random.

just the typical me when i got nothing better to say.

:p

amidst the PEEE lecture just now,

the lecturer talked about drinking and relationships.

lol it started when he did a few mistakes in the working.

the he said maybe its because yesterday he had not enough sleep because he went to pub.

maybe he saw our surprised expression,

he quickly disagreed that lectuers had no life.

hah.

then somehow we reached the topic of relationships.

i can't help but agree with him heh.

teens want a lover but then they are using their parents money to support their lover.

doesn't it sound wrong?

hah.

wtv ah.

maybe i shoudla gree with him and steer myself away from these things lol.

alah confessing also waste time ah.

the other sex won't take it seriously.

personal opinion. :)

Dad: Aman ko nak ikut gi melake tk?

Me: Oh kakak tu kahwin eh..aman ikut abg aim ah.

Dad: Abg ko tk tahu ikut ke tidak tau..dier ade ADO..kakak ko ikut.

Me: Ohhh...kene pakai baju kurung eh nnti?

Dad: Tak ah.

Me: Kalau gitu aman ikut ah.

lol.

which means i'll be out of singapore during chinese new year.

:D

haiz.

i'm feeling rather restless about the current Gaza war.

but well, its nothing i can do about really.

just pray.

anyway i can't help but comment that Malaysian government is pretty immature in banning Coca-cola products that sort of things.

they wouldn't give a damn because they got a hell of a bigger market elsewhere.

but this one thing i think might scare them.

MIGHT.

cut off their oil supplies.

if the Middle East nations who supplies them oil were to not sell them the resources they would be pretty much in trouble.

yeap big trouble.

its pretty sad to know that the Hamas military had only been using rocks and home-made rockets that just end up in the desert or what without hitting any targets.

as compared to Israel's GPS rockets and their tanks and stuff.

haiz.

well. 

no say?

i wonder if Singapore will give them humanitarian aid like they did when China was hit by an earthquake.

they even started a charity show with teary pleads for generous donation.

but this war?

had they been trying as hard as during the earthquake?

fuck hell they don't.

politically professional uh?

fuck lah to date more than 900 innocent people had died lah bloody hell.

alahsingaporemerepekahactivelyparticipateinhumanitarianactivitiesmyasslah. 

first and foremost,

i would like to apogise to people whom i showed little in chatting with on MSN.

Also includes SMS.

i don't feel like laughing about things for now 'cos i'm still not in the mood.

so yeah i'm sorry too.

also please, some people, just stop annoying me.

i get more lethargic especially in the state of health I am in now.

i'm seriously very sensitive now,

i'm getting ticked by things i wouldn't have cared less.

so there again i'm sorry.

i just got to know today what caused the dreamy(?) effect i had been having.

i didn't have the drowsiness caused by usually a cought mixture.

its being dream.

like a drunkard.

haha.

on the way to Msia yesterday, i packed along two slices of bread.

so in i went into the car while semi-enjoying(semi-enjoying because i got food to eat but it taste like tofu),

when i finished nearly finished the first slice, i started searching for the second slice.

but then i just forgot where i placed it,

i was like asking my bro if i had eaten it or not.

then my mum pointed out the i was actually sitting on it.

ok maybe not sit, just that its positioned behind my waistline.

aiyooo.

teruk.

and guess wat.

the moment i got back the 2nd slice, i started eating the 1st slice again.

then i forgot where i put the 2nd slice again.

i searched for it again only to realise i was holding it.

ALAMAK WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME LAH SO KUKU.

stupid fever medicine haha.

ok lah at least now i'm feeling better.

i don't think i need to take the fever medicine again because i'm ok now i guess.

now i just have to finished the course of BIG antibiotics.

doctor wants to kill me.

:)

amidst the numerous migraine attacks i'm experiencing now,

i will stay strong and report of my day.

hurhur.

wtv.

yeah wtv but the migraine part, its REAL!

sakit lah.

my head felt like bursting.

ok back to topic.

basically amidst my fever.

i went out with fam including my sister's fam to have hi-tea at Msia.

did i mention that my fever stopped the moment i saw the food?

hee. :p

as always it was nice lah.

the food are all appetising.

as a bonus the restaurant crew must had a great time serving us.

hehe.

well we can't deny the fact we are really chaotic and fun-loving people kan?

it was damn fun ah.

starting from my bro-in-law teaching his son to tell one of the waitress that she's very pretty.

lol.

he really said it to the waitress.

haha i couldn't stop laughing quietly (giggling?) because i can;t possibly laugh out loud in the restaurant right?

lol.

more funny antics would be the shocked look of my bro-in-law's face when the ice-crusher came to life when he least expect it too.

mcm-mcm.

he has too much too laugh about.

i couldn't/wouldn't/mustn't talk about the whole dining experience because i'm not a food critic or wat.

so yeah i guess that's about it.

oh ya after that i my fever apparently went away.

not until the night.

lol.

my bro-in-law, sister, my bro and me when out to town at around 9pm.

if it isn't for the migraine i'm having.

i would have enjoyed the sightseeing.

lol.

'sightseeing'.

alah taknak ah.

all the girls there damn pretty but smokes.

after that my bro-in-law had nothing better to do he went to drive around Geylang Lor 6.

HAHAH!

fuck seh.

lol.

but then in my very humble(cheh!!) opinion,

the prostitutes there are really beautiful people.

i wonder why they got into this kind of things.

become a stewardess lah.

aiyoo.

lol.

maybe its they way of life.

lol.

ok lah i'm done here i'm dead beat.

and my migraines are acting up again.

haiz.

for this post i'll cheat a bit and post it as yesterday's date.

and it's all because of the sudden super high fever i experienced.

i'll talk about it later.

this aside, i'll post about my first experience as an event photographer.

wait i just confessed i'm a cheater did i?

o.0

aiya don't need to cheat ah.

just leave the date as it is.

as i had stated in this previous post,

i was tasked to being a photographer for SP Open House 2008.

and i was pretty excited when they provided me with the 350D DSLR.

well actually initially yeah i was excited,

after that as the time goes by i got less excited.

haha.

i was paired up with this Chinese girl and gosh, she IS cute.

heh.

demam-deman pun gatal.

so she will be asking people whether they wanted group photos and if they were to agree, I would take the shot(sounds like a sniper eh? -_-).

we had a pretty good yield i have to say.

15 shots in 2 hours,

CONSIDERING the number of people who wouldn't want their photos taken.

heh.

that would include me.

the girl who was paired up with me: why so many people don't like to take photos?

me: well, actually i'm one of them. i like to take photos, not my photos taken of.*grins*

and if anyone were to say that photography is not challenging at all,

i'll INSTANTLY disagree!

my ass lah not challenging.

lol marah seh.

my back was aching and my wrist controlling the zoom felt painful due to the constant rotation of the lens.

it doesn't sound that difficult here either.

wait till you're in the same situation as me.

LOL ceh.

and i don't know why,

but there's a sudden overwhelming numbers of menggatal girls.

i mean i don't think i'm that inclined to good looks.

or is it maybe because the camera is hot?

lol.

especially this group of girls,

everywhere i went, they will always be in my close proximity.

it does freak me out.

hah.

Spinovex was kind of anticlimatic.

everything seems to be the same old same old.

i mean ok fine not that i'm a genius or wat,

but i wished that there were more cool and unique projects.

after i got bored, the moment i went out of the white tent,

i overheard this two friends saying that NP is much more livelier than SP.

i told Siva, Jolene and Hui Yin about this,

and then Hui Yin was like Ya lor a lot of people say the same thing sia.

then Siva cut in and say, actually they all jealous because they cannot get into SP what.

haha nice one siva.

after my photography shift finished,

went to class.

that was when i had my first signs of fever.

maybe next week i'll apologise to the PEEE and programming lecturer for sleeping in their class.

haha.

i felt so sick i can't even hold my head up.

i couldn't even concentrate during the lessons.

during programming i didn't even know what i was typing.

the funny thing is, i got them correct!

lol.

programmers instincts?

heh.

the moment the lesson finished, i rushed my way home.

after taking a nap thinking it would soothe down the heat,

it got worse.

i didn't even have the energy to move around.

and i felt like i'm in lalaland.

i couldn't concentrate on anything.

its like i'm drunk.

haha.

i totally skipped school today.

actually at first i planned with Jolene to  only skip the useless TCS lesson.

but then i had no choice cos good health was not on my side.

so sorry Jolene, didn't mean to betray you haha.

after the friday prayers i went to get some medicine.

oh and i didn't know being sick will make you lose your intelligence too.

i temporarily lost my ability to count properly.

i'm supposed to take the med 3 times a day.

so 24 hour/3=8 hourly right?

no i didn't say 8 hours,

i confidently told my mum i had to take it every 6 hours.

LOL.

luckily my mum was alert enough to correct me.

if not i would have died due to overdose.

well maybe for now i have to just take my medicine and get well.

after that i will need to catch up with the Programming lesson i missed.

damn ass fuck.

i hate today.

GEMS really suck nowadays.

its getting boring.

especially with two bitches in our group who complained to the lecturer we didn't do our work when the assignment haven't even started.

damn fuck lah why was i grouped with the bitches.

dumb ass overated fashionistas.

the stupid bitches aside.

i'm going to be a photographer tomorrow!

but i was looking through the club's camera.

i was like wth?

what kind of camera are they using?

film slrs?

not that i'm criticising but what they heck are they?

haha i never did see or used them before.

leica?

ok fine i know leica.

huh? holga?

sounds like a creature's name.

like some sort of ogre.

heh.

but i read through the photography forums and SURPRISINGLY,

these are good cameras actually.

film slrs.

35mm goodie goodie.

but i swear i won't know how to use them.

i think they would let me use the A80 i think.

nono i hope they let me use the 350D DLSR..hehe.

if that were to happen, it would be the first time i'm using a Canon DLSR.

i do like my uncle's Nikon though.

need to wake up early tomorrow.

soooo toodles!

btw SP Open House starting tomorrow @ 10 am.

people already in tertiary just come and get goodie bags!

lol.

so fucking tired lah!

aiyooo.

i was lucky to have went home wiht lutfi just now.

i wonder where i might end up if i were to doze off.

lol padahal tengah diri.

i just feel that IE nowadays had been pretty useless and boring.

the lecturer didn't really teach us anything.

ok fine poly life is like that,

self learning.

but this is to the extreme.

he only told us some words for example demultiplexers and decoders then after that we were expected to come up with a damn bloody big design for our project.

with just those two pathetic words.

DE lab also pissed me off.

i can't seem to make the MOD counter with reset and start/stop to work.

ass lah.

i spent 2 hours just on multisum.

trust me its tiring for the eyes and mind.

well at least the good thing today was that maths was cancelled.

no wait its not that good actually.

i did soldering during the 1 hour.

but ended up getting frustrated because the lanes keep on bridging.

GERAM.

after that i threw everything into the box and blast music.

heh.

my instant stress remedy.

ok now i shall go to sleep now.

super tired.

btw to all taking Os this year,

ALL THE BEST!

AND TRY NOT TO DROP SUBJECTS.
BLOODY TRUST ME.

you might be scoring an A1 in o lvls for the subject you kept on failing.

really, trust me.

i know.

heh lutfi would also know.

hafiz too.

eh asraf too!

hee (:

after seeing all those toys at toys 'r' us jsut now,

it just made me just wanna "grow"14 years younger.

heh.

everything is soooo nice to play with.

lol.

it was actually just a typical outing my sister brought us out cos she wanna buy a toy for her little brat.

so knowing us,

we made full use of the oppurtunity.

we were like trying all the toys there.

HAHA.

and also as a bonus,

we switched off all the tv promoting toys.

i know, we are asses.

hehe.

but it was fun nevertheless.

really proved how bored we were eh?

i'm pretty excited about this thursday and friday.

i volunteered to be a photographer for SP's Open House.

:D

do come for the open house from 8-10 Jan 2009.

i think there should be goodie bags up for grabs.

oh and gosh i'm terribly sorry hafiz.

heh.

i totally forgot about out meetup.

aiya..i wrote my name on the list already seh..

cannot delete.

next time eh?

SORRY!

i'll mark today as the day something had really made a mark on me.

specifically a 13 page article.

about persuasion.

now i knew how some people can be that influential.

its all because of this.

People will do anything for those who encourage their dreams, justify their failures, allay their fears, confirm their suspicions and help them throw rocks at their enemies.

short to say,

basically human beings naturally tend to cling on other people to feel better.

so the people who says that they are very independent.

i'll just condemn them in their face.

and also i think this is how my dad made me do thing i don't really want to do.

refer below.

Parents often discourage their children’s dreams “for their own good” and attempt to steer them toward more “reasonable” goals. And children often accept this as normal until others come along who believe in them and encourage their dreams. When this happens, who do you think has more power? Parents or strangers?

so since i knew this stuffs already, i'm going to start countering already.

for now i will gain more of his trust by listening to him.

after that...only lutfi knows what will happen.

hehe evil plan eh?

negative things aside,

i've got a promise to work on.

i want to be someone who isn't selfish.

not the typical selfishness.

but emotionally selfish.

i'll stop thinking too much about myself and focus more on other people.

what they might need from me physchologically.

There is something else worth noting about this sentence(referring to the first bolded sentence in this post). It is missing something most people think is very important in the persuasion process. Here’s what’s missing: YOU! There isn’t a word about your wants, your needs, your hopes or your concerns. There isn’t a word about your offer or proposal. There isn’t a word about what you think. It is all about the other person.

this article really woke me up from my selfishness.

this i promise to everyone.

i WILL work towards this goal.

another resolution for 2009.

Joke of the day:

During cycling today, told Hafiz of how displeased my dad would be if he found out I went cycling.

Hafiz: Then what will your dad allow you to do?

Me: Pray?(super spontaneous face; I mean I'm stating the facts right?)

Lutfi: HAHAHAHA.

oh man.

i got freaking 78 marks for structured programming.

haiz.

i wish i had 2 more marks for another A.

haiz but well,

results are results and i will have to make do with it.

i'll just work wayyyyy harder next time.

eh wait, there's no more exams for programming!

YAY!

my streak of happy days ended today.

i just hated TCS lessons nowadays.

a lecturer who thinks he knew everything.

the ass tried to make sure my sentences are wrong when they are not.

sialan mentari.(o.O)

moreover i was pretty dissapointed with some of the things i knew.

i'm just being friendly, i can't help it if i were to "flirt".

wait its not that i can't help it.

i don't even know how i did it AND i don't even want to do it.

i don't like goofing around of the opposite sex when i know i won't be serious.

so there.

hope the people change their mindsets.

again, 

I'M BEING FRIENDLY.

looking on the brightside.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI YIN!

lol sorry its like 1/2 hour more to the next day.

hope you enjoy the little gift.

one thing for sure, it isn't that expensive as you think.

:D.

oh yeah i know it like 4 days late,

but thans for the keychain too!

its damn cool.

wait i wanna show it off.

:D

isn't it a beautfiul piece of art?

lol.

its a cambodian manual work.

made out of coconut husk.

yeah it does smell bad.

haha.

but its really nice so i don't care abt the smell.

i can just pour my perfume on it haha.

thnx yeah!

for the first time since i started polytechnic,

i watched tv the whole day.

well actually its the MTV Awards that spurs me to watch.

i watched MTV Asia, Winter, and Europe.

i just love this kind of shows.

Winter was the best because everyone seemed to be wearing winter clothing(duh obviously),

and i like winter clothes.

also this band whom i had put up their song before at my blog (Killing Loneliness) appeared at the show though they played a different song.

they do sound good live!

the most bubbly would be MTV Awrds Europe.

especially with Katy Perry as the emcee.

she is so funny.

she seemed to change clothes everytime she went on camera.

her last outfit was so damn funny if i found the picture in google thios few days i will post it.

moreover weird bands like The Ting Thing went on stage.

their song is pretty catchy indeed.

oh my god i'm so proud of 30 Seconds To Mars.

they won two Videostar Awards from both MTV Awards Asia and Europe.

and its their video Beautiful Lie that made the fame.

i personally love that video cos it highlights the issue of global warming.

oh shit,

so fast lah the public holds finish!

haiz back to school tomorrow.

the secondary school people will also be having their first day of school tomorrow.

pretty stupid eh?

school start on Friday?

might as well extend the holds till Sunday and reopen on Monday kan? 

I know this would had been said across the whole world in blogs.

but then i still have to say it,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i really hope 2009 would be an even better year.

it is definitely a pretty memorable year for me,

for example remembering the time when she hates me due to some particular reason, 

but now we are the best(?) of friends.

i met more people especially relatives whom i never knew did existed.

reunited with some of my primary school friends.

noticing the change in me trying to get find my identity and what i like or not.

(i never did thought studying is that interesting),

well no sarcasm intended actually.

i loved the part when i saw my results getting better because i realised in the nick of time that slacking isn't the way to go.

and i'm proud(heh) of myself in trying and accomplishing my goals of changing my attitude towards studying.

and also, last but not least, i realised what love really means.

it's not about treating the opposite sex like paper napkins,

its about trying damn hard to watch yourself in order to not hurt the other person.

its about being frank at the right time because lying might carve a path to greater jeopardy.

I wanna take this oppurtunity to apologise to people whom my words had left a scar.

sometimes i don't really intend to say this kind of things.

its just me, i always say what i think is the fact.

yeah maybe one of the things that i should work on this new year would be to just keep quiet about things i'm not happy about.

also, i don't think having enemies would do any good for me.

so from hereon now,

i'll just treat no one as my enemy and no matter how hard it may be, 

i'll just bear by the fact that taking up enemies won't do me any good.

i hope when 2010 approaches,

i'll remember about this post and when i check out my archives,

i realise that my resolutions - two of them as mentioned above, came into reality.

and also be happy about the fact that i might be a better person.

so now i'll head into 2009 head on.

overcome any obstacles and challenges i will face.

2009 would be a special but challenging year;

because it is when my real chosen path of becoming an Aerospace Engineer comes directly into play. 

i'm going to start things off by saying, Bismillah.