oh man..
as the day come nearer the more nervous i get...
this saturday would really be the gauge on how serious I had been training..
the internal competition..
gosh..

i hope it will be like the first few rounds I had just now will training..
at 18metres 40cm face...
3 arrows at x...
2 more at 10 and 9 respectively..
oh man oh man..
Allah help me please..
i want the bow..
hehe.

then after the internal compe would be Pesta Sukan..
its an archery competition known country wide..
it will be held at Zhenghua National Archery Range which is just in front of the Segar LRT...
cool eh?
haiz but damn it..
i dun think i can join..
need to train more..
i'll gain more experience..
then maybe i will sign up for competitions..
oh man oh man..
my passion for archery LOL.

oh gonna turn in now.

GEEZ!
one whole day of making a poster is such a ^&($&*.
and it BLOODY A1 size!
wth.

haha no lah i'm just exaggerating..
oh well i'm really doing a A1 sized poster..
BUT!
using photoshop lah..
haha nak mampos pakai tablet or markers?
photoshop you can actually zoom out and everything would be small sized...
but when you print it everyone will go WOOOAHHH!
oh and did I say the poster looked so girlish?
WTF man!
this happens when you put moons and stars inside..
damn it..
need to put more boy stuff!
SHIT!
grr i'll continue tomorrow damn it..

and one thing I realised about my blog..
i realised that the song isnt working anymore..
haha i wonder for how long my blog had been silent..
*clicks away to imeem to get a new song*
oh well i'm just feeling rather crazy today.
short to say..
am i en route to kegilaan?
haha.
i dunno but ustazah said sleeping after asar may make you crazy..
but somehow i will doze off after asar..
haha.
maybe that's why people said i'm acting weird these days..
or is it because of other things?
hmm..
the hell lah fuck off bad thoughts.

and yea made a new bow sling today..
my damn previous sling lost its way home (ade kaki ke pe)..
i only realised it was missing while i was bathing for madrasah..
usually i will never take off anything from my wrist as i go to shower..

yea i cant be bothered...
that includes my watch and the bow sling..
the sling is makes kinda a nice wrist band..lol
so its like after bathing i will squeeze all the water from the sling..
but just now, i was kinda terperanjat to find out that i dont have anything to squeeze..
geez am i sounding pervertic?
haha dont think anything else...
so finally i concluded that the sling lost its way home..
haha sometimes i lose my things when they aren't supposed to get lost..
its like the sling's so tight on my wrist sia.
oh well luckily got another nice strong string..

oh fuck where did i put it?
ARGHHHHHHHHH!
*rummages practically everywhere*
-_-.

WOW!
3 days never update!
haha..

orite just a typical saturday with archery and all that kind of things..
except it involves negative and positive things..
like for example..
the negative part is when..
APPARENTLY..
the HCTC camp people took away my assigned bow!
wth!
i had to use a different bow..
and the hell it is..
the riser feels so weird..
its DAMN FAT!
gosh!
and the arrows..
geezz..
they flew like retards..
either i plucked the string or it is bcos of the arrows thats lacking flectches..
but somehow every arrow flew the same way..
haiz might have to ask the QM department to fletch..

then it was my captain's and one of my archer mate's birthday..

lol..
i was kinda surprised..
haha.
















oh and also got my personal armguard and finger tab finally..
lol big deal.

then after that we continued shooting...
and guess wat...
while i was at full draw, my phone rang..
haha at first i was like wondering whose phone it was cos it sounded familiar..
then i felt something vibrating in my pocket..
lol it was MY phone..
haha..

my mum told me to come home quick..
cos my cousin's wife had given birth..
haha i was damn excited!
i actually zipped the arrow after that call..
haha..
IDIOT.
lol..
yea fyi, i LOVE BABIES A LOT!
lol..
i dont dare carry them..
but i tend to stick to them a lot..
duh they are cute things(things? haha)..
who can avoid?
haha..
i also made a lame comment just now..
there's this indian asking whether the baby is a male or female..
then my mum told her its a girl..
then the indian was like OH ya! pink wrap..
haha..
then after she walked away..
i told my brother..
if male is blue, female is pink?
is gay purple and lesbian white?
lol so lame lah..

alright i think i should go to sleep now..

due to my hectic schedule nowadays,
it is inevitable that i couldn't blog as much as in the past..
i'm sorry bout this..

and i wanna let the whole world noe..
i'm a retired rocker..
):
heh retire ke pe..
lol
i just couldnt find the time to practice guitar..
so now i'm considering myself as a full time archer rather than in the past when it's 50/50.
yup gonna collect money and buy a metal bow..
HOYT BABY!
lol..
yea bows are hot.
(:

nothing much really happens to me this few days..
well except the tons of project i have to complete..
right now i'm "anticipating" the week 17 presentation for IDEA..
its basically just a presentation to market our product..
most should noe its about the alarm clock thingy..
so i'll have to wear formal (Hui Yin started this idea..SHIT xD ) and two lecturers will be grading us..
one on our product and the second on how we present.

hmm alright i'll stop here..
wanna get some rest considering somehow this past two week i dont have enough sleep..
so cheers!
BYE.

after a really long time not playing scrabble..
i got my hands on it..
and competed with my brother..
it was damn funny lah..
it looks like i'm cheating but weirdly, its actually accepted..
for example my bro puts "prize" which scores 26 pts..then i added "s" and got 27 pts..
hahahahah..damn funny.

and guess wat..
i didnt noe DUH is actually in the dictionary..

i was damn shocked to see the word..haah

Definition of duh: To show someone stupidity.LOL

now i really find english rather weird..
i didnt noe theres such word as jo..
haha..

so at last i scored 232 points hehe.
(:

*I'm losing ideas on what to post on my blog. Please give me a topic to talk about? haha maybe controversial ones? lol

YAY!
just now during archery I started to use the bow sling..
its basically a string (sometimes undoubtly a shoelace? haha) that is tied on the thumb to the first finger..
















i like it a lot..
its like i dont even need to hold the bow and be able to get the cool "bow swing?" like the seniors..
except the wooden bow swings upwards unlike the metal counterparts cos they have the damn heavy stabilisers..
and frustrating as it is..
it kept on hitting my cap..
haha..
and yea i had a graze on my lips..
):

i tried pulling my captains bow..
alright maybe its tugging instead..
haha!
40 pounds! WTH?!
i'm only using 24 now..
its like double the poundage so of cos i couldnt pull it..-_-
its also damn heavy..
theres this thingy in from of the damper..
its really only the length of my little finger but seriously!
dont be fooled by its weight..lol..

then in the morning..
this senior Shazwan was playing around with another senior(not really sure how to spell his name..his nickname is Bear lol)..
then suddenly Shazwan's pants ripped apart sia!
we were like soo laughing so hard..
damn funny sia..
luckily he wears shorts inside.

so i shot 40cm faces at 18m..
it was weird really..
i'm used to shooting 80cm faces at 18m..
and the target paper is at the middle of the board..
then suddenly the 40cm face is like sooo offset to the corners..
it really feels weird shooting.

but it was kinda boring without my clan or should I call them clique?
haha some busy with assignments that sort of stuff.

then sometime in the afternoon..
of the archer that's close to me got his arrow stuck in the board wood..
he cant take it out..
apparently..
after his clicker clicked..
which is the time he is supposed to release..
the arrow suddenly dropped immediately and during the exact time he release..
so the arrow went down and into the wood..
so sad sia..
$50 PER arrow..
how heartaching can it be?




















































alright my hands are rather numb now so i think I should stop.

Some random pictures.
















if a 24 pound bow can do this, what if its high poundage?
















i love to see the bright lights at SP.

i just don't know wat is happening to me nowadays..
endless thoughts appeared on my mind..
it never happened or occured to me before..

so its like questions that maybe only a handful people thought..
for example..
haha this sounds erm kinda weird..
but i kept on wondering..
am i gonna get married?
if yes, when?
who would this person be?
is it somebody i already knew now?
haha weird rite?
yea i'm also aware that its not in my position to wonder about this..
its Allah..
but somehow its like i cant seem to stop wondering..
haha
NO getting married is not the only think i had been thinking about..
lol other things had also been bugging me..
like how will my future be?
hmm..
well i guess i should just wait and see.
(:

also this few days i had been bumping into a lot of people who i didnt even think or expect to see...
so its kinda divided into two types..
the first is the people who i will be glad to meet..
and the 2nd the one i'm not really glad to see..
the day before ytd..
i met my primary school buddy with her boyfriend who is in the same malay class as me in secondary school.
haha small world eh?
then today i met my senior from zhenghua and she asked me where i'm schooling now.
then she was like saying jc is rather fun..
then i was like err..haha sounds scary to me.lol
yup sometimes glad to meet people whom I forgot they existed..
LOL..

yea talking about meeting people..
i'm felt so happy today during TCS...
we learnt about listening to what people has to say..
then at the end of the lesson..
my lecturer personally told me that I have a very good listening ear..
i was like WOW!
haha..
didnt really expect it.
then he continued that it is really part of the reason I can relate to people easily..
cos that time I asked him why some people find it difficult strike a conversation while others can easily manage..
ALRIGHT!
WHO WANTS A EAR!
(((:

also today Hui Yin, Jolene, Nigel, Sivanesh and me talked to another PEEE lecturer about the problems we are facing with Mr Teo..
haha seriously I felt really relieved and happy after talking about it..
yea see how merciless I can be..
dont mess with the Rahman?
LOL..
but still, i got some guilty feeling too.
oh wtv..lets just wait for things to happen.

*Latest update: My friend Sivanesh just reported to me that our digital circuit board is working perfectly! WOOOHOOOOOOOO! 3 cheers to Sivanesh the designer and me the errr haha engineer?(:

happy day for me today.

cool..
i actually accomplished something today..
haha
i finished soldering everything that is needed for my 2nd IE board a.k.a digital board..
damn fun lah..
i love soldering..
cos it reduces my lifespan..
60% tin
40% LEAD.
(:
nah just joking..
dun like the smell that much..

after that accompanied Lutfi to his audition..
damn they took so long sia..
then at last Lutfi told me they didnt tell the results yet..
aiyoooo..
but cool lah!
Khairul Anwar was there!
well thats wat lutfi told me..
he was the singing judge..
yep the people auditioning have to sing, dance and act..
which i just couldnt do!
):

oh well lets just wait and hope for the best.
AMIN.
(:

first of all, I would like to apologise for not updating my blog as often as in the past becuase right now my work is catching up and i'm getting busy..
so SORRY!

so to start things of..
read this article..
http://www.todayonline.com/articles/265281.asp
COOL SIA!!!
wooooooooooooooooooo!!!
the station would be just in front of my place..
ard TMJ area there..
DAMN HAPPY LAH!
can merayap everyday..
but lol by 2015 I would be err..24?
haha..
yup i'm really happy about it..
WHO WOULDNT?
haha
only just now 3 housing agents called..
my father reject them like what sia..
haha!
alright so i think i'll just wait till 2015..

lets change to the subject..
i found out something really surprising about my class..
yesterday i didnt go for the math tutorial..
then my fren Sivanesh told me the whole class was asking about me..
SURPISE SURPRISE..
hmm (:

i just freaking don't know why..
but i felt so hyper and happy in school today..
i teased SO many people.
I even said hello at a female stranger.
lol wth is wrong with me today?
tapi dier damn lawa lah.
haha

the moment i see Hui Yin, i asked her..
eh? nvr see you wear white before then you suddenly wear..haha
the she replied oh cos no other shirt lahh..
then somehow..
i replied back..
oh i thought i was talking to Hui Yin's ghost..
haha!
the people around there was laughing like crap sia!
muke straight giler seh!
lol a.k.a muke Mediacorp..
credits to Hafiz..lol

but really sia!
everyone in the class seemed to have good chemistry with one another..
during maths the lecturer was talking about a new concept..
then she was like..
raising her voice saying it would be interesting..
then Ben was like loudly WOOOOAAAH!
haah it was damn funny lahh!
the whole class was laughing hysterically..

then on the way to DE practical...
mustafa got this idea of saying yea! and what? in a very funny, screechy and weird manner..
its like wth seh..
everyone was looking at us as we cross the T14 linkway bridge to T12A..
haha so GILER!
lol..

now we are planning to say the what? thingy the moment our PEEE lecturer comes into class..
haha
i wonder how we will sound.
LOL.

wow!
didnt know its that painful and tiring shooting arrows without stopping from 9.30 am to 4.30.
basically i wanted to train for the internal competition that i want to take part in..
its just soo tiring!
heh..
and i got a very nice arm-guard impression on my forearm..
so its like 3/4 of my forearm got darker and the rest just remained the same..
and really its damn obvious..
haha i gonna wear long sleeve to school everyday from now till the impression is gone..
will it?
heh.
today was a really HOT day.

while others have their own groups by 1.30 pm..
i'm the only one solo-ing..
so means i got the bow to myself today..
haha..
but it was fun really even though its really tiring in the sense like arghhh!
haha wtv i mean..
i competed with a year 2 archer just now..
he looked like a japanese to me..
i was rather happy i won him 2 sets out of 5..heh
one of the sets i won was like..
3 arrows in the x (the centremost), 2 in 10 pts and 1 in 7..
haha so taico..
but it kinda give me experience..
like how pressuring it can be to compete..
especially in knockouts..

and somehow today while i was shooting a LOT of people seemed to sms me..
and it irritates me a lot..
geez.

haiz i dont know whats wrong with me nowadays..
i get so easily upset, pissed and irritated..
i just dont know why i'm being like this..
its just so unlike me..
one side of me told me that i'm depressed..
another part says that its just me..

i cant really pinpoint wats really bothering me..
is it about the people around me?
is the about the person?
or is it about school?
i just couldnt get it..
why am i like this?
i really felt like i need someone to tell how i feel..
but somehow i restrained myself from doing it..
i'm afraid people would just think the otherwise..

weird as it seems..
i may look strong on the outside..
but somehow i feel afraid i would do this thing that might shock a lot of people..
haiz i dunno..
i feel so confused rite now..
its like my life just derailed.

i guess emotions are running really high for me right now...

haha berbaloi aku balik zhenghua hari ni..
so fun lah!!
as usual..
hafiz+lut+me=havoc in a good way..
heh wonder whos the mastermind..
hinthint!!
lol...

yep..
we went back to zss to take our erm school graduation book thingy?
haha..
lol it was damn funny cos i thought we were supposed to take back our thermometers ...
haha LOL!
back to the "book"
it was damn cool lahh..
blue hard cover with laminated cert, result slip and testimonial..
aku punye testimonial mak kau!
punye lah panjang!
haha lol..

we saw mr wee and mdm tan..
then met our classmates from pjc..
they are all like the old them..
haha like nth change..
except Kah Leng i think she wears contact lenses..

then i went to the toilet..
haha kate dah lame eh tk gi toilet dier..
then after i went out talked with the principal about what we are doing now..
it was the first time actually i talked to him..
haha dah graduate baru nk ckp..
nice one Rahman..

we got some weird stares from the zhenghua people..
haha
ye la like we damn unique not wearing anything related to zss..
heh..
haiz rather dissapointed we cant met cikgu mislimah..
but she should be relieved lah..
if i were to see her..
shes done for...HEH!
lol..

i got nth better to do so i took a pic of the "book".





















The "book"! School Graduation Certificate..
haha






















eh i thought i failed my o's?
how did i graduate?
:D

AWWW!
didnt get to complain about my lecturer today..
haiz the one we are supposed to talk to wasnt in..
haiz haiz..
nvm soon i will be able to..

ok lets change topic.
this may sound err funny?
but somehow me and my brother are in good terms already..
i find it rather weird...
actually it went back to normal yesterday..
but i find it rather weird though..
its like the day before we were fighting and the next day we are together again..
lol..
so unlike the past..
once we didnt even talk for 1 month..
heh..
maybe we are growing up..
so u noe lah..more ermm mature?
heh..

oh and my mum got this call 3 days ago..
apparently theres this woman by the name of Normah wanting to speak to me..
she says shes from zhenghua and needs me to take something...
but at last my mum forgot to give her my number..
so now its like i'm waiting for her call..
one side of me wanted to just go there..
but then i thought..
why go there when i dun even noe any obvious reasons for going there..
another side told me maybe its just a fool playing around..lol
then my mum was like where got adult play pranks..
haha then i said "jgn2 dier nyanyuk ke.."
haha!
so klakar my mum just gawked at me..lol

dah lah wanna stop here..
hmm a lot of "work" to do heh..(:
i love you.(<:
err haha anybody made a smiley like that?lol

good.
one word to describe everything...
i'm going to talk to one of the PEEE lecturers tomorrow to complain about my PEEE lecturer..
if that doesnt help..i WILL talk to School Of Electrical and Electronic Engineering's director....
dun underestimate me Mr Teo..
the whole class is complaining about ur teaching being really sucks..
so just wanna wish u good luck.

alright all the doks here!
i'm BACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK!!!
lol..
today's IE was fun though we didnt have youth day!
WTH nt fair!
heh we are err senior youths!
ade youths jugak ape!
heh..
we started a new project..a really hands on one..
its like creating a circuit for 7 segment display(i.e. the traffic light)..
i gt it on my first try ok!
wee jia you rahman!
luckily i practiced soldering a lot..
its was rather easy after that..except when my soldering suddenly when nuts and wont melt the solder..

then on the way home i met this surveyer..
wth she thinks i'm a typical kiasu singaporean or wat?
she says she will give me a $10 voucher if i help her do a survey..
then it was like i could see how long the survey is..
then i refused lor..
i observe that i caught her offgaurd though..
lol who resisted a voucher sia..
moreover i need to reach home quickly cos i need to do my math tutorial and CAD..
lol sorry lah eh auntie..
lol..

ya talking about this..
i dunno what had been going on between hafiz and me..
we were talking like coffeeshop ppl..
here it is..













lol quite weird lahh..lol
now lutfi says i sound like a newscaster at my wordpress blog..
lol so baku he says..

got another round of scolding in the car just now to madrasah..
yea i dun really care lah..
kinda immune to it already...

after madrasah went home and changed clothes to go to the jemputan..
oh the nasi minyak? taste so err like nasi putih with oil dumped on it?
oh wtv..
went to nenek's house (almost 2 months since I went there? I dunno why I ain't thatclose to my nenek like other people)..
ate Haagen Dazs..prefers Ben and Jerry's..
then went home, continued troubleshooting my DE project..
blah blah blah..
basically I have no mood to blog right now actually..
but i felt rather satisfied that i managed to work out my DE problem after 1 week..

soon i will be starting a new blog just to cater to my err "passion?" for songwriting..
might be using livejournal or wordpress..
so my first 5 entries would be the 5 songs me, Hafiz and Lutfi had written..
its where i will jot down my inspirations there..
one thing i'm afraid is that i will abandon the blog due to the fact that i have a hectic schedule..
and oh i might be using formal Malay (Bahasa Melayu Baku) so sorry about that..
i just couldnt find inspiration to write in english..
EVERYONE IS WELCOMED TO GIVE SUGGESTIONS TO MY SONGS.
Thanks in advance.

Edited: After much thoughts, decided to stay with blogger cos couldnt seem to understand Livejournal's navigations.

GEEZ!
i dunno why today after archery training everyone in the house seemed to really pissed me off..
it all started when i entered the house and went to salam my parents at the sofa..
then it was like i extended my hand and both of them extended their hands but never even bothered to look at me..
wtf seh..
my mum and dad was so engrossed with the bustard Sudoku book and the fucking tennis game on the phone respectively..
i was like sial lah why like that seh..
its like they didnt even welcome me into the house..
its like they didnt even value for wat i am..
ass lah..

then comes my brother...
this is even more fucking irritating..
its like suddenly he wanna piss off when we were in a good to each other for the past year?
my parents hadnt known that i gotten the Ibanez guitar..(yea smart me, not now anymore)
then he simply took the guitar (i wont curse my guitar for god's sake..its just beside me now), the amplifier and the distortion box right to his room..
wtf seh!
is it his money huh?
how the hell do he get the rights to bring the guitar into his room!
then wtf seh!
after using he didnt turn the tone and volume knob of the guitar back to 0..
ape seh so irresponsible!
then he kept the wires plugged into the distortion box..
its like as long as the wires are inside, the battery will starting running out!
OMG dunno how to use dont use lahh!!
the battery's expensive ok!
fine its 4.50..cheap for u!
but i dont get the same allowance as you as when you were in poly too wat!

then now my mum is like siding him..
cos i was so unhappy, i didnt even want to look at anybody and frowned all the way..
then my father asked me why i kept on doing that..
then suddenly my mum came in saying that i'm unhappy cos my brother took the amplifier and the distortion..
then my father started scolding me..
wtf seh.
thats not all..
then she was like saying "The guitar didnt even belong to you"
so it was like..
shes saying the guitar is not mine?
obviously my brother told her he bought the guitar..
WTF IS WRONG?
IT IS MINE LIKE DUH BLOODY INFINITE TIMES!

EH SIAL AH BINGIT SEH!
don't feel like talking about this anymore!
i mean its not like i wont allow people to touch my guitar..
BUT!
touching it behind my back?
wat the hell if theres a mishandle and something spoil?
i have to pay for the repairs for god's sake!
electric guitars arent like the bloody acoustic!
its just very sensitive!
a knock might screw up everything!
GEEZ!
and even if 1 out of the 6 strings breaks..
I HAVE TO BLOODY CHANGE EVERYTHING!
unless Hafiz recommends me some shop that sells it individually...
1 pack $10..
takes some bloody time to string..
and more time to tune..
and even more time for the string to be "warmed-up"!

how cool!
LOL
today is just soooooo inspiring for me..
LOL..
nah nt the PEEE results..
yea passed..oh wtv..LOL
it was the "concert" at NYP that wowwed me!

cool lah..
i feel so lucky Hafiz actually invited me haha..
i feel so inspired to be a good rhythmn guitarist..
hmmm..
HAIZ DAMN COOL LAH!
CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE MY URGE TO TOUCH THE GUITAR!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
haha

yea i dunno really noe wat to talk about nowadays..
so sorry for short posts..
alah at least better than nothing kann?
heh..
especially with this flu and cough..
haiz and depression..
huh?
depresson Rahman?
wat kind?
OH WTF stop it.
nites

yea this happened to me just now..

when i wanted to get the video for splitting..

wtf seh i have to present tomorrow and yet its tranfer will last like so man 20k+ days..

lol..

damn lah this is wat i hate about dvds..

cant rip easily..heh..

oh well..

nvm i'll try doing my best..

limit-limit hentak laptop jek ape..

lol

i can't believe soldering its not an easy task..
): maybe cos i'm not exposed to soldering in sec sch..
downside of pures..
):
damn hard and frustrating sia!

oh talking about frustration..
wth i had to redo my CAD project..
its like last minute the lecturer gave the exact measurements when at first he told us just to estimate..
fuck seh..
lucky my dad allow me off for blajar today..
gosh dam damn..

eh no reply?
(: