Accidentally in love? NAH dont think so...

cool!
my long time fav song is finally up...
sry i cant blog now...
been very busy lately.
i'll blog on Sat if i have the mood.

I'm done with you...

ok now i got rid of my other self..
the negative other self..
thats y i deleted the previous post...
its full of negativity.
and i promised myself not to be negative about stupid unnecessary things.
after a week long hiatus for my positive,
it finally came back..
WOOOT!
its a terrible holiday for my positive self with the negative overwhelming...
wtv.
seriously i don't know what i'm talking about.LOL.

ok so just now me and hafiz went to sweelee to survey instruments..
oh god i cant believe hafiz surveys guitars like girls shopping for bags/shoes...
he practically wanted to test all the guitars and the amps...
well at least i already planned to which keyboards to survey like the Roland Juno G...
well i dont feel like buying it..
waste money buy so expensive.
i rather buy yamaha's...
so its like i'm done with my surveying and hafiz was still trying out..
so i gt bored and went to look for damper pedals which they dont sell(stupid shop) and microphones..
also not available..
the horrible shop..
i gt so frustrated i told hafiz my mum wanted to have lunch with me togeta(well i was lying of cos) and we went straight home..
in fact he keeps on bothering me to folo him to penin plaza...
GAWD!
haha..
ok i'm done here...

now i wanna talk about my dilemma.
i just felt like telling my crush that i like her...
if i were to not confess, i might lose out..
and i were to tell her, i might lose a friend if she were to reject...
oh man!
I NEED YOUR OPINION!!
*drum roll*
Mulalah Bahas 2008!
LOL

I'm envious of ppl...for the second time..

i felt somehow jealous when ppl say they are very close to their grandparents..
to the point that they will break down once their love ones pass away...
just now i was in the bus with zainal back from madrasah and he told me he is so close to his nenek...
and enjoyed the love she had given him...
i mean how come i'm not that close to my nenek?
is it bcos we rarely meet?
like every two weeks on tuesday?
or is it my fault i didnt get myself close to her?
i mean like when she reaches my home..
i will be like..
"eh nenek ah! ceh lawa seh nenek hari ni!*laughs*"
then after that i will kiss her hand and after that switch back to my silent self w/o talking her that much...
yea i tink i'm in the wrong..

YOG(A)?LOL

this may be like a 3 day old hot news...
and its when we completed painting the whole house..
but Singapore has actually won the bid for the youth olympic games...
Congrats.

and i'm so tempted to say this..
but Zhenghua ppl sure wont have an attire problem when they go for the party...
red uniforms..LOL

and lastly i'm so glad i actually accomplished another goal...

sound editing..

and this is the most complicated software i had used so far..

and i'm proud of myself for knowing how to use it!

show off!!!

LOL

The Keyboardist

omg this keyboardist is so cool!!!
i think i would try this song the moment i get my new arranger keyboard...

Stiffness in me...

my mind and body are both feeling so stiff right now..
and i dunno why my body kept shivering for no apparent reason..
i was so pissed off with myself for going to the wrong place and waste lutfi's time and money...
i tink he might notice how quite i was in the bus...
i'm terribly sorry lutfi...

this few days i had been observing my father very very closely..
and i felt that he is trying to change to a better person...
it started when we ate at KFC at johore bahru...
usually he would ask us to carry the food cos he's lazy..
but that time it really surprised me that he actually volunteered to carry the trays...
and now he wanted to bring us to the air show this saturday...
in the past he wouldnt bother to bring us anywhere in Singapore as he hated congestions...
but he had to cancel his plans cos tickets are sold out...
i knew he wanted to exposed me to aersopace since i got into the course...
even though he had to cancel, i really appreciate him trying to change his ways...
i think its time to be more careful when talking to him cos i feel that i should be supporting him...
thnx dad!

aniwae just now suria msged me again asking where i was posted to...
then i was like...
wth should she care?
i mean i didnt reply to most of her smses in the past...
and yet y is she so concerned bout me?
well i had to reply to her sms for the sake of replying and satisfying her...
she obviously had no idea how much it cost for an sms dont she?

And the winner is...

ok i wasnt up the ladder when i gt the sms..
cos my father decided to rest and only continue painting this coming Sunday.
so i didnt hurt myself...
thank god..haha.
so i gt in Aerospace Electronics @ Singapore Poly...
i was amazing that MOE gave me my results at 8 am super sharp...
i monitered the Starhub Cable TV time..
and the moment it strikes 8 am..
my phone sounded...
you all would nvr had guessed how amused i was....

and i received an sms by someone whom i least expected to ask me where i was posted...
and there the person was asking me and in fact that person is the very first one...
thnx very much for ur curiosity..
i really appreciate it..
u noe who u are..(:

Posting results.

so it will be out at 8 am tml..
hmm..
at that time i will be taping the skirtings for the living room..
so when i get the sms..
i might be on the ladder..
and when i'm excited, i will jump and either get beheaded by the fan, fall from the ladder and break my leg or jump to far and hit the ceiling...
i prefer hitting the ceiling..
i swear i would be excited by any course that i was posted to..
(:


cos i'm bored..
i read all the chats i had in MSN...
and i found this particular part when i'm chatting about the girl Lutfi says looks like Jepun.. (we do know her, so no haressment meant..)
so i went to see also..

Lutfi: muke mcm budak jepun..
Me: mane?
Lutfi: nov 2007 bawah
Me: kk
Lutfi:aku mcm research ape je
Me: sak ah
Lutfi: ape?
Me: yg baju merah tu lawa
Lutfi: org dier ke baju?
Me: baju
Lutfi: haha
Me: ?
Lutfi: to me org dier lawa
Me: Oh..heh..ckp tak heran konon!
Lutfi: tu ah aku pun heran nape aku heran
Me: ape saje jek!

H.A.I.Z

seriously i feel like i'm dying...
nothing else to do in this world..
hopeles..
like a balloon flying on its on in the air..
no sense of direction...
lucky this tues is the posting results...
if next weeks..oh my..
i would have faint from boredom already..
i'm literally in a cage...!

Stupid Haircut

dam i hate this hair cut...
nvm it will grow back...

well i found my new feel good song!

i really love the way they toss their guitars..
the guitar would have flew if i'm the one tossing it around..
also like the picking and the stance...
i wish i can smash my guitar..
enjoy!

I'm proud of myself, shitface.

while my father ordered me to take a rest...
and he starts painting the ceiling..
i'll summarise about what happened bout 4hrs ago till when i finished my job.

Once upon a time,
ah wtv!
screw the intros!

i knew i said we will only start on Sun,
but my father tend to change plans and start today with my brother's room.
oh my...
my brother's room,
it's like a scene in a haunted room,
with cobwebs on the higher walls and cornices...
oh yea talking about high walls....
i realised that i overcame the fear of stepping up the ladder till the last step...
usually the moment i reach the 3rd last step, i will grapple with anything i can hold on to secure myself from falling.
if you guys can't visualise how high the ceiling is,
its 3 times higher than a MRT train..
Lutfi should know...
and standing on the ladder by the window feels like you have lost all your loved ones and thus preparing to commit suicide.

i was pleased with myself doing the job rather nicely.
Ler puji diri sendiri nampak!
heh.

and well the unthinkable happened...
When i'm enthusiastic about some work,
i'll do it really quickly..
and when i go fast, accidents happened...
well its a hilarious accident..
i was rolling the paint roller to collect the paint on the tray...
and without looking i swing the super long pole up towards a wall..
and to my shock it swinged 1/5 of the way but get caught into something..
and that something is actually my dad's sleeve...
so its like i "painted" half of my dad's sleeve and a part of his hand...
we stared at each other b4 he smiled with a frown(err i dont know exactly how to explain his smile)...
my mum heard the commotion and went inside the room...
and instead of offering a cloth, she laughed at my dad...
it was a rather pleasant moment frankly...

ok i'm done here..
my mother told me to buy dinner with my brother..

PS: In case you guys think i stained the keyboard with white paint, i didnt...
it went dry pretty qucikly..



oh yea b4 i forget about it...
i would like to thank the Civil Defence for sounding the alarm...
cos u guys woke me up in time for friday prayers...
cheers!!
I wish CD changed the position of the air raid siren to another block cos they are deafening...

this may be insignificant.
but finally!
i had made up my mind on my wishlist!
i can't really make up my mind on what to get first and last.
be sure to see my blog's side panel!
It flows from the highest priority to the least.
Some are rather surprising.

This morning, my brother lie down beside me in my bed.
And i'm not even aware of it.
The only that i know that when i turned to the other side.
I saw his face and he shouted at my ear,
"Happy valentines!".
Then i was like wondering,
WTH he thinks i'm a female?
I made an exagerated excuse to shoo him out from my room but to no avail.
Sempit lah abg aim!!
LOL..
such exageration.

My first accomplishment..with perfection?

well i'm rather proud of myself that i actually did my job rather neatly...
i cleaned up the skirtings of my bro's room and cover them with tape in preparation for the paintind day...
the cleaning part,
i didnt do it with enthusiasm...
cos i seriously dont like ppl seeing my butt perch above my head whilst cleaning...
haha..
not even my bro...
but the taping part..
i loved doing it so much that i decided to do it really carefully...
and gt satisfied in the end..
so does my mum...
(:

oh yea...
i heard my dad would be painting one room per saturday...
means it would take 4 weeks...
living room and 3 three bedrooms..
hmmm i tink the living room will take 2 days..
i nvr saw my dad paint the whole living room in one day..

I'm childsih..so is my bro..

hey!
i didnt noe my bro would be that a good sport..
we did one of our childish pranks on my sis's son...
the 2 yr old toddler...
haha..
we called out his name and quickly laid on my bed and pretended to be asleep...
two ppl lying on a single bed...
how squeezy..
then he will quickly rush to my room and answered to our calls..
just ot find me and my bro "asleep"..
lol..we did it like 5 times..
haha..
hes so adorable with his bald head...
i nicknamed him "The Monk".
haha...

seriously i cant wait to do my part in the repainting..
its my first time btw..
my dad couldnt trust me in previously...

haiz...
sometimes i wished my crush would ask me who my crush is...
well not that she havent ask me b4..
i felt so shy...
and afraid that she will get a heart attack if i confess...
seriously.
oh god!!
LUT I NEED ADVICE!!!
AHHHH!!!

The Relief.

phew just now madrasah was an instant relief for me on the ppl i miss(refer to previous post)..
i don't feel lonely..
really.
had so much fun cracking jokes with Shah and Zainal.
During the aqidah/sirah period,
the teacher told me and shah to get the sirah books from the other class...
we went into the class as if we wanted to find fault with them...
super funny.
my sec 1 teacher was there..
and i managed to crack some jokes with her..
and made her class go noisy...
it was amazing though...
i was a rather good joker..
ask Shah..haha

And i made a silly mistake.
I called the girl sitting beside Aida Zafirah instead of Zarifah..
well actually at first i didnt notice the slip of tongue..
but then later i heard Aida making a "commotion" with Zarifah..
super paiseh sia!

DAM IT!
now i'm getting the lonely blues again...
gosh cant wait for next Sun.

oh yea!
finally my father decided to repaint the hse...
weee!!
he put me in charge of the undercoating..
ok maybe nt put me in charge..i volunteered.
Why?
cos its the easiest job and i can afford to make mistakes without affecting the final coat..
But he's doing the repainting over the weekend..
i hope i wont get so tired that i cant go madrasah.

PEACE OUT!

oh my!
imo lily allen is so hot at fashion rocks 2007!
but i noticed she was rather nervous..
cos i tink she's afraid the models will beat her up..
cos she criticised models b4 in the press..



today is really my lucky day..
i played monopoly with my bro and one of my cousins...
i played the high stakes way...
my dad taught me the strategy..
which means i kept buying land and build hotels...
well actually i only own three lands but only 2 have hotels..
tralfagar(hotel),bow street and convenant(hotel)..
so if i enter ppl's property i may immediately go bankcrupt..
but luck seems to be on my side..
i hauled $6786 in total net worth..
maybe i should bring monopoly to the reunion..(:
shuld i?

Me: The Misser

aww man!
i've been missing so many things these days!!
I miss:
My guitar!
It had only been like less than 12 hrs dat i lent it to Hafiz for a restring...
and just now when i woke up after my afternoon nap,
i thought it dissapeared into thin air.
I miss:
Anything related to stress.
I got so envious of seeing people in school uniform carrying big,heavy bags..
i missed homework so much i did A Maths yesterday..
but well, duh i screwed up 2 in 5 qns.
and THEY ARE ACTUALLY EASY FOR ME WHEN I'M STILL IN SCHOOL FOR GOD"S SAKE!
I miss:
My friends!
I've been looking over the class, RHD and chalet photos,
and sometimes grinned seing funny pictures.
and my mum thought i just lost my mind she asked my father,
Ayang esok kiter kluar?
Budak2 tu mcm boring jek.
LOL.
And most of all,
I miss:
DUH!
HER LAH!
2 more days Aman!
2 more long days!

and yea lut,
Izdihar too...haha!

I discovered something similar bout Hari Raya and CNY.
They burn things on the eve of the celeb..
like my family, we cooked ketupat so we use charcoal...
my neighbour on the CNY eve, they burned hell money..
good unnecessary observations huh Rahman..
budak takde keje acam gini lah...

oh yea..
i have this feeling that i'm screwing up my lang a lot..
see my previous posts,
u'll know wat i mean.
stupid mistakes.

Highlights.

What i have encountered in the last three days.


The failed water heater.
Yea i was taking a shower to prepare for madrasah and guess wat..
the water is not heated...
i mean not that i mind..
except that the water feels like a cup of tap water being put in a freezer for 30 mins..
and for my father sadly...
400 bucks flew off..
bought a heater on the next day..
and called his friend to help connect all the mains..
and he did the piping himself...

Found out bout my father's hilarious secret..
he once loved to put big insects(eg. cockroaches) under cups and watch them move the cups..
till now i couldnt stop smiling thinking bout it.

finally...
i would like to tell all Chinese..
HAPPY CNY!
Gong Xi Fa Cai!
and
Ang Pao Na Lai!

ok good..
moments ago i burnt my finger while with much enthusiasm helped me sis to cook,
to prepare food for the incoming KL ppl...
well at least i'm prooud of myself that i had helped...

talking about KL ppl...
i "dumped" jana even though we havent even start a relationship...
i'm so pissed off that she kept smsing me at around 3 am..
and caused me to go madrasah with such a sleepy head...
how i dumped her?
well i smsed her telling that i hated what she had been doing...
and she went silent...as in she didnt reply.
and so as always i will feel guilty..
and smsed again to tell her that we can still be close cousins...

haiz y cant i be hard headed and not feel guilty over such things...?
damn!

cool i found a new 'game' to play to keep my mind off things..
well actually its my dad's architect design program thingy...
super fun lor...
its like playing SIMS at a more professional level..
its even better than the games i played earlier...


and to address my previous posts...
i tink i knew wat went wrong...
i gt too friendly with her...
and she thinks i'm interested in her...
oh gosh my affectionate side just murdered me...
no way i will forget my crush..if u think i will.

What the heck?

Ye ke..i x caye lah..bg pendapat i..i suke care u..u hensem ape!x kan x de org nk kat u..klu i dpt buah hati mcm u..i happy sgt..u s'org yang baik dan cepat mesra..I like u..

i freaked out after reading this sms.
terpinge-pinge seh aku!