I'm envious of ppl...for the second time..

i felt somehow jealous when ppl say they are very close to their grandparents..
to the point that they will break down once their love ones pass away...
just now i was in the bus with zainal back from madrasah and he told me he is so close to his nenek...
and enjoyed the love she had given him...
i mean how come i'm not that close to my nenek?
is it bcos we rarely meet?
like every two weeks on tuesday?
or is it my fault i didnt get myself close to her?
i mean like when she reaches my home..
i will be like..
"eh nenek ah! ceh lawa seh nenek hari ni!*laughs*"
then after that i will kiss her hand and after that switch back to my silent self w/o talking her that much...
yea i tink i'm in the wrong..