first of all.
thanks hui yin.
i really needed that.
i'm so glad to have you by my side.
in the sense having you as a friend close by. :D
i'm sorry that i got distracted so easily.
i know its frustrating for you to talk to me,
then after that suddenly i turn to you and say, huh what did you say?
i can't help it.
can't stop thinking about things.
i promise i will not be like that soon enough.
i really hope.
but it was surprising when you said that i kept saying "my life is horrible" from last week.
haha i seriously didn't realise i said that.
hmmph.
well maybe it really is.

ok so today as per normal.
was fun with the guys who are always looking out for each other.
siva did some mischivieous things with my camera.
haha my little darling Analeigh.
feel so sad for her.
i knew that siva had always wanted to take a picture of this girl.
lol it was funny how excited he is when he saw her and kept on giving some signals about his intention of using my camera.
lol.
he's clever to make Jolene take the photo to make it less obvious.
but i swear to god how obvious it is when she pointed the camera.
haha.
the girl realised it so she told her friend.
they suddenly turned around and eye-d me.
i was like wth i'm so innocent.

a lot more potraits by yours truly.
today i was really in form.
haha.
the photos turned out to be very nice.
i like this particular picture of Jolene.
its a really powerful picture.

erm ok somehow it didn't look that powerful when view small. anyway this was supposed to be a picture when Jolene pretends to be an old lady wearing her specs low. you can actually see my camera in her eyes. lol. i was post processing ok, so its easy to notice everything.

then during CRS we had to decide on what topic on what we should debate on.
that was when i suddenly turned super silent.
i mean like its just me that i tend to shut my pie holes up when i think.
and they think that i'm being emotional.
someone even said "what are problems of teenagers nowadays? They tend to moodswing a lot."
it felt as if a knife actually stabbed my heart when i heard that.
urghh.
people still dont understand me i guess.
well nvm i'll just keep how i feel to myself and not let it out.
i guess they need more time.
anyway its useless for me to say it out anyway.
people will just say that i have a sucky attitude and that i only care about my feelings.
so yah.
basically that's what i'm trying to say all this while.
pfft.

cya guys.
with love.