continuing from yesterday.
hmm where did i stop uhh.
alright got it.

my 3rd reason.
ok so basically my bedroom is kinda well equipped with almost anything.
i have my laptop which can basically do anything (eg radio, movies)
i've got snacks in my side table.
and soon there's gonna be a small bar fridge right below my bookshelf.
so i don't see the need to go scavenging for food in the kitchen.
cos i got my own kitchenette! :D
oh ya for this, i have to admit i'm pretty selfish.
i don't like sharing my snacks.
haha.
alah i have to use my monthly pocket money to buy everything.
from clothes to stationaries to other things that i want.
its always, i give you this (little) amount of money,
you pandai pandai take care of your budget cos i don't care if its enough or not.
wow i really like my dad.
the way he says things.
i wish one day he would really ask me why i am so selfish with my money.
really. i got a script already.
ah whatever.
oh and if the overseas internship is considered affordable and yet he still refuses to let me go.
i'm gonna dig everything out.
i promise.
i told myself, nothing will get in my way of wanting the experience for my future career except Allah.
so back to the point, that would be my 3rd reason.

4th!
and last.
finally.
ok this is a very sweet and simple.
i'm not that friendly at home as compared to when i'm outside.
so basically i won't smile at home.
and this might did cause some misunderstandings among the family.
so i think its better for me to stick inside my darkroom to prevent some anger provocation.
i'm positive i will lose in terms of fun factor at home to my brother but outside, i'll own.
ok lah nt saying i fun, but at least better than at home.
i just don't feel the chemistry at home.
the way i think is totally different from others.
which most of the time i appreciate.