so much for my "i'm getting better".

i suck.

i lied.

i said i'm doing better when i'm not.

i lied to Lutfi.

but i'll call myself lucky to have friends who will make me smile even though i don't feel like it.

even though i only smiled 10% of the time today.

i don't even know if they are sincere smiles.

thnx Hui Yin for playfully strangling me.

i hope you will do harder next time till death.

i'm sorry Abg Aim for replying very short messages.

its a surprise you can actually sense that something is wrong.

thnx for trying to make me talk.

but i just can't.

i don't know what's affecting me.