just before i posted this post,
i've realised that i did not post yesterday's one.
so i guess i will be combining today's post with yesteryday's.

Saturday, 9 May 2009

i had the weirdest breakfast today.
there's garlic bread, mushroom soup and salad with tomatoes in it on the table.
ok so its obvious that i should eat the garlic bread with the soup,
but then the salad?
where should i dump it?
inside the soup and then scoop it up with my bread and then eat it?
it really made me sit there thinking for a few minutes before i started eating.
i was dumbfounded.

sometimes i believe that my parents can't really blame me for having a lack of interest in malay culture.
its them who just wouldn't expose me to the culture.
hmmmmm.
pretty ironic isn't it?
oh well.

later i will be spending the night at my sister's.
i kind of like that place.
its really a nice place to be at.
especially with stress building up in me.
it really does release some steam.
oh and of course there's always the playstation to accompany me there.
not like the pathetic PS1 at my place which i couldn't find any nice game to play.
lol.
the downside would be that there isn't any freaking useable wireless there.
haha.

with love guys. :)
nah actually i don't really feel like smiling ah. hmmph.

Sunday, 10 May 2009

so yah, back from sister's house.
it was heaven there.
lol.
some of my stress gone, all the "aman get ready for prayers" gone.
playstation accompanied me while i'm there.
but now i'm back to reality.
back to the horrendous modules like OOP and Servomechanisms.
back to the super strict rules at home.
seriously i'm getting sick of it and at times i feel like just stuffing a pillow into my face and just hope i can escape from all this if you know what i mean.
and now, its back to school tomorrow.
i don't really know how i will perform in school this week.
i'm so afraid that i will break down again and in the process start hurting my friends feelings.
haiz.

looks like i will be starting this week with pretty fucked up.
as much as i hope it will get better, i'm pretty much sure it just won't.
maybe i really need to talk to someone about this.
but then, i just wanna share it with her.
and now she's "dissapeared".
who should i turn to?
dear friends,
if you were to see me wearing a freaking shit attitude, please forgive me.
and no matter what happens, i still love my friends. :)