today was the election day for the new president and and vice president for the club i'm in..
and yeah my friend got it..
yea don't mind that.
but man the IVP jacket.
i love it so much.
i envy the people who got it.
haiz..
wish i'm one of the best archers.
hmmph..
i guess i will have to work hard to get it.
firstly i need to start with expansion.
but then i don't know who to ask for help.
might be paranoia or not.
but it seems that nobody wants to help me.
haiz.
again.

i hadn't been much in a good mood nowadays.
i wondered how i could laugh just now at the club.
i just feel worthless.
i good at nothing.
like seriously, nothing.
i'm sorry to people who i had been snapping at.
i'm sorry asraf,
i'm sorry hafiz,
i'm sorry lutfi,
i'm sorry ____________,
i'm sorry everybody.
i seriously don't feel like being socialable(?) these days..
i hadnt been smiling at home.
i hadn't been hanging around the living room with my parents and my brother.
i've been locking myself in my bedroom doing nearly nothing.
please, i don't feel like being nice nowadays.
so stop trying to annoy me.
don't blame me if i were to blurt out something nt nice.
and now i also don't care how close you are to me.

i wonder whats happening to me.
is it because;?